Currently living (basically) separated under one roof with Cancer Sun, Aqua moon.
I have Scorpio Sun, Gemini Moon.
We were together for 7 years, then split for about 3 years (on/off) then moved back in together when Covid hit and severe rental crises began, where we live. That was 4 years ago.
For the past year and a bit, since our little one was born, we've been separated (we've had seprate bedrooms since moving back in together 4 years ago) all physical and emotion connection severed (by me). I realised after our little one was born (actually while I was still pregnant) that the connection was draining me more than it ever fulfilled me and I had zero spare energy to give after having a baby. I was exhausted.
He's been emotionally closed off almost our entire relationship He's closed off to the kids- so it's not just me.
I've felt alone anytime we were involved. I've felt more alone when 'with' him than I ever have when actually alone. More alone than when times were a struggle living as a single parent.
During the time when we were separated and living separately, I briefly dated a Scorpio sun and Venus, Gemini moon. That brief relationship or whatever it was was deeper and closer than anything I had ever experienced. It changed me. I've felt a longing ever since.
I've felt like I've needed this place. = D