Posted by Walk_on_byLol my anxiety would never.
Have you considered becoming a storm chaser?
Posted by StubbornSagMatches my kinks perfectly
Lilith in 8th house is the impression I got and turns out that's where yours is.
"Black Moon Lilith in 8th house can be an indicator of problems with sexuality. You can be restricted from experiencing it fully, or alternatively, you can be involved in many affairs. This placement can suggest that your early perception of sex was that it is violent and humiliating. Your sex life becomes better in the second half of your life."
There was something else I knew that indicated that pattern but I just can't remember...if it comes to me some time later I'll write again😅
Posted by nanochipYes, thank you. I started therapy and we're working on boundaries and cementing a sense of self
I think this is going to be a recurring lesson for you to learn about your boundaries. Define those and respect yourself to stop attracting these types of men
Posted by virgoOPPPYes, my younger sister who also developed some mental health issues as a teen so obviously got more attention. But my dad liked her more since the beginning. I was just....invisible.
did your parents have a 'favorite' child?
Posted by MrNobodyHmm, thanks for pointing that out. It took me a looong time to understand my scorp father but I get him now as I am older.Posted by NinaScorpPosted by MyStarsShinePosted by NinaScorpPosted by MyStarsShinePosted by NinaScorpPosted by MyStarsShine
What stops you from saying to these men either they don’t keep you a secret or there’s no relationship?
I think it was low self-esteem and just having someone who loves me back. Also, the fear of being alone.
As a scorp it used to be hard to find someone who understood me so I settled for less.
So maybe it’s a good idea to take a break from relationships and invest in some therapy to help you gain confidence.
I used to fear being alone but now insist on it 😂. Quite the turnaround hey?
Haha, yes.
I am taking a break from relationships and building up a better sense of self. Therapy is helping too.
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That’s good
What’s your moon sign Nina?
Scorp Sun, Caner moon. I certainly need a lot of help!
Zodiac : Tropical Placidus Orb : 0
Sun Scorpio 7°02' I ASC Capricorn 11°37'
Moon Cancer 12°12' II Aquarius 17°43'
Mercury Libra 19°14' III Pisces 25°14'
Venus Libra 0°21' IV Aries 27°58'
Mars Pisces 29°54' V Taurus 24°44'
Jupiter Gemini 4°04' R VI Gemini 18°08'
Saturn Sagittarius 28°46' VII Cancer 11°37'
Uranus Sagittarius 28°17' VIII Leo 17°43'
Neptune Capricorn 7°54' IX Virgo 25°14'
Pluto Scorpio 12°19' X MC Libra 27°58'
Lilith Virgo 18°48' XI Scorpio 24°44'
N Node Pisces 12°29' XII Sagittarius 18°08'
Sun in X MC
Moon in VII
Mercury in IX
Venus in IX
Mars in III
Jupiter in V
Saturn in XII
Uranus in XII
Neptune in XII
Pluto in X MC
Lilith in VIII
N Node in II
Not entirely sure, how to post a chart here....
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First off, I'm glad you took a good step back and reevaluated it and noticed for yourself. I hope you'll take a good focus on your own path to heal. And ngl I almost sorta resemble of this story as I noticed myself with my own relationship pattern, in which I have made my decision to take a huge break from that.
I noticed you have sun-pluto in conjunct of 5 degree. Did you by any chance has an issue with your own father? And noticed something similar of your parents relationship with your relationship pattern?click to expand
Posted by MyStarsShineScorp Sun, Caner moon. I certainly need a lot of help!Posted by NinaScorpPosted by MyStarsShinePosted by NinaScorpPosted by MyStarsShine
What stops you from saying to these men either they don’t keep you a secret or there’s no relationship?
I think it was low self-esteem and just having someone who loves me back. Also, the fear of being alone.
As a scorp it used to be hard to find someone who understood me so I settled for less.
So maybe it’s a good idea to take a break from relationships and invest in some therapy to help you gain confidence.
I used to fear being alone but now insist on it 😂. Quite the turnaround hey?
Haha, yes.
I am taking a break from relationships and building up a better sense of self. Therapy is helping too.
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That’s good
What’s your moon sign Nina?click to expand
Posted by IceStorm
Have you already looked at your birth chart? Can you look to see if you have Venus in the 12th house and/or hard aspects between your Venus and Neptune placements in your birth chart? If you’re not familiar with how to look for this you can post an image of your birth chart here.
Venus/Neptune aspects or Venus in the 12th house (ruled by Neptune) can manifest in these ways… secret relationships, being attracted to unavailable lovers, ignoring red flags and falling in love with the idea of being in love. I have these aspects and have had similar experiences.
Posted by MyStarsShineHaha, yes.Posted by NinaScorpPosted by MyStarsShine
What stops you from saying to these men either they don’t keep you a secret or there’s no relationship?
I think it was low self-esteem and just having someone who loves me back. Also, the fear of being alone.
As a scorp it used to be hard to find someone who understood me so I settled for less.
So maybe it’s a good idea to take a break from relationships and invest in some therapy to help you gain confidence.
I used to fear being alone but now insist on it 😂. Quite the turnaround hey?click to expand
Posted by MysteriousHeartI hope and pray you find your way out and have the great relationship you deserve.
Welcome to my life. I am probably the most unstable female on dxp right now with a knack for picking the most unavailable men imaginable or either I find a way to screw things up. I’m in therapy now, but I really do feel there is no hope for me. I am one very screwed up Scorpio that’s for sure.
Posted by Jade_AlexanderYes, the love bombing (by the Leo, Cancer and the Scorpio) was really something. Scorp husband was the master gaslighter.
You have a pattern with emotionally unavailable men. I bet they probably love bomb them manipulate and gaslight you.
I would suggest therapy as you struggle to red flags, likely connected to your own childhood chaos or whatnot. This is a pattern you can break through self awareness, rebuilding your self concept and having a better relationship with yourself.