Yes Melly Mel, i agree. For us to end this on going cycle i will have to completely block him from my life. As of yesterday i made that decsion. I blocked my facebook (he has admitted to going on my profile to see what i am up to) and i also blocked his number from my phone, but that does not stop text messages. I have to move on from this. Its to hard on my heart.
Good Morning,
I have been on here a few times *sigh regarding my ex scorpio. I will probably be completely judged but at this point I need to know what this man is thinking, so any insight will be much appreciated.
Okay so here it goes, for the last year i have had an on/off relationship with this scorpio man. If you have read my two previous post than you will see if been quite a rollar coaster ride. I care so much about this man but i continue to allow him to play with my emotions. I did not talk to him for three months, no contact, nothing. He started asking our mutual friends about me, what is she doing? How is she doing? ext. Then out of the blue he text me saying he thinks about me everyday, not a day does not pass where he does not think about me. I did not respond, the next day he text again stating that he was thinking about me and bought me some perfume and wanted me to have it. I text back stating that i would accept the perfume. The following day he text again saying that a part of him loves me and that I am in his pumping organ (his heart) but he knows he cant give it all to me. He has never told me he loved me before so I was kind of shocked. He asked me out to dinner. I agreed. We talked, held hands,and slept next to each other that night,(no sex) it was real nice. We continued to talk for a few days then out of the blue he gives me the silent treatment again! He text me on Saturday night and said, " I havent contacted you because i dont want to take advantage of your loyality towards me", I didnt expect to spend the night next to you (even though sleeping next to you is amazing) i just wanted to see you and to give you the perfume.
Huh?? I asked why even come back into my life, for what? you know how i feel about you, why do this to me? If i knew i couldnt commit to someone who really cared about me I would not continue to come in and out of their life, i would leave that person alone so they dont feel as if i am leading him on. He said i am putting to much into this, and he didnt mean to hurt me. I am so confused. but its expected from him, I know I am allowing this to happen.
But why does he like to hurt me?
Ok, so i am back with a question for all you scorps out there, he still has not spoke to me, i have text him a few times just to get my belongings back that i left at his house,no reponse. But he is telling mutual friends how much he misses me and LOVES me?? he has never told me he loved me, he has always said he has strong feelings but never love. when the mutual friend asked why he cant return my calls then he said that he cant continue to open that door between us? Im very confused. and i guess he has been calling around a few people asking about me, what have i been up to, what im doing? but he cant pick up a phone and ask him self? I dont understand this behavior at all. being the sign of communication, this is all so new to me.
continued, i think my message was cut off.... so much a human being can take. I am just confused, i told him i was scared he would hurt me again, he promissed me that he has so many feelings for me that is the last thing he would do.... and here i am again. why would someone tell u how much they care for you and how much love they have for you, but turn around and do these things, without even an explantaion, or even a simple response. just completely cut me off because the way i responded to an emotion that he created??