Happy birthday fellow librans...anyone else on the 3rd?
I didn't expect this reaction but I needed it. I know my friends have said the same things but I didn't want to listen, I keep looking at astrology for answers and excuses.
I'm going to cancel on him and listen to advice from wiser people. I did fine without him before so I will be fine now, but I just got my hopes up when he reached out you see.
Thanks
Its true, Im not his therapist but I just dont think he has had anyone understand him because people think hes cold and heartless; plus I feel he wants to help me the same too
Yesterday he called me during my lunch and played 'we belong together' by mariah carey, he actually made me listen to this part as he played it down the phone from his car:
didn't mean it when I said I didn't love you so
I should've held on tight, I never should've let you go
I didn't know nothing, I was stupid, I was foolish
I was lying to myself
I could not fathom I would ever be without your love
Never imagined I'd be sitting here beside myself
'Cause I didn't know you, 'cause I didn't know me
But I thought I knew everything
I've never fail
I was really shocked but I do feel that is his way of saying sorry and expressing how he feels. I didnt even know he listened to this type of music. I didnt even think he would call as much but it feels like after everything has happened he finally believes my feelings are real. To me it is a big deal that he played that song because he used to ignore me and express no emotions and is just so stoic, so to play that meant alot.
But taking on board all the comments I will tread carefully, i really do want kids and i will give it my all, i think he is doing that too. If he reverted to his spitefulness I would walk away, and i did in the past.
He also opened up to me about his childhood and how poor his family was, that they couldnt even afford school uniform etc. He had issues with his speech like stammering and stuttering as a child. Like he hasnt had an easy life either, he's had issues with drugs and opened up to me too. I feel like none of us judge the other, over time its like the feelings have become unconditional.
But as I said before, my interpretation may be wrong and he could actually be calculated and working on my weaknesses and just stringing me along. But I just cant imagine someone being that mean?
So far from people's comments, even though I find it hard accepting, it looks like the latter.
Thanks for your feedback
I am not being emotionally abused. What I was trying to say that yes he has been mean to me and I highlighted how low he stooped because I would never do that to him, but also, I am not perfect, maybe at time I pushed him away but through all of the ups and downs he seems like he wants to make it work.
What I wanted to find out from caps was, after all the ups and downs, if he can really see my feelings as true and genuinely wants to make it work properly and that our love did stand the test of time OR, if there is a chance these thoughts dont even cross his mind and that he is just stringing me along because he knows I love him?