180 Degrees (Page 3)

vgurl,

i won't have as much time to keep on going with this issue, so sorry if i can't go on and on. i really don't understand why you seem so mad at me when you barely know me. i don't know anything about you...your age, background or life at all...but i'll be willing to be a friend to you if i percieve that your message is carried in good intentions too. right now is hard to see that by the way you come across to me.

i feel that you got issues with me maybe because i'm a guy and maybe you don't trust many of my kind...but not everyone is the same...so i'm sorry if your assumptions are based on bad experiences.

secondly, i do need friends and buddies to encourage my way. i value the sense of community. we humans are social beings, if you woulnd't agree with that then why would you even be here in these boards?

i can do many things on my own of course, but approaching to God after all these past years is scary for me so i need someone who is where i am...to encourage me in the way...not because i can't do it myself, but because it would be better that way.

i'm sorry if that concept sounds weird to you, but that is just who i am and how i operate my life.

why did my relationship ended if i think i'm so smart? lol, i don't think i'm that smart to begin with..and secondly, finding the right person at the right time is only at least 60% ...trust is the rest.

my aqua and i couldn't foster that trust because she and i seem to have a different concept of commitment, she said that herself...and while i respect that i wish she could have said that to me sooner...how else could i take that?

and as far as a reason to lie? when i asked her if i had done something wrong to deserve that she said "no" read back into my story vgurl, why motive would i have to make that up? i'm not trying to impress anyone here.

and i'm not playing a victim vgurl, who would want that? that's just the way it was like for me...you haven't been in my shoes, you don't know what is like. love to me, is conditional upon respect and honesty...i can't let someone do whatever they want just because i love them...nor should i expect someone to love me no matter what i do.

vll

thank you starfish...i know and appreciate that...likewise k. i'll be here for you and there are lessons to take in every relationship we go through...i won't lose more time explaining things...you know what is like, you've been there. i encourage you too to keep on moving, only looking back to take the lessons you learned with you.
who knows what the future hold, but for now, you deserve the best of the world in your life...and changes sometimes will bring that for you...we are constantly evolving you know...let's make this a transformation for the best!

moonchild, i really wish you the best w your aqua, i know you care for him deeply without even knowing his side of the story. i would doubt that you would spent so much time to come here to share about things otherwise. my relationship ended, but i hope yours lasts for a long time and if not, i hope that happiness and peace comes more and more your way.

vll

if you are my friend i wouldn't say things that you want to hear. i wouldn't say things to pacify you.

my friends seeking support or advice to me won't hear these things to me.

i'd rather let them be independent to others and learn more about life and discover the mysteries behind it on their own. that's how a person becomes strong. that's how a loving relationship should be built. it should grow. it should have a foundation -- build on trust, hope and love. it simply just don't end that easily.

Message posted by: vgurl on 2/6/2007 5:28:11 PM ip: xxx.xxx.xxx.6
starfish, no i'm not reading the whole truth on this. we all know for sure that this is NOT the WHOLE story unless, i'll be able to witness or hear what this girl has to say.

How would you propose doing that vgurl?

tamara,

yeah good question for vgurl! no idea what the answer could be lol, but i do have her phone number if anyone dares to take a chance...i'm sure she would love to hear from all of us right now!

aquaqi,

thanks for answering bud. yes, someone leaving you to do the hard work is terrible...but you know...it gives us the courage to stand up and deal with things...
i agree stability in feelings is super important. we all got struggles and confusions here and there, but you can't force anyone into believing what you do and wanting what you do. hope all is well for you today!

leokitten!

how is your life these days? i really wish you the best in your relationship, i do.
i'll be here if you need a place to vent ever k.

vll

so, now it's just down to you and me, leokitten 😉

vll,

LOL! we could always do a live webcast (jk!)

seriously though, stay strong and know your own self-worth. it's a painful time for you and most of us here understand what you are going through. some of us are going through the same thing.

contrary to the crap vgurl writes, no one is here to judge you.

tanya023 and tamara...very nice meeting you! thank you for your words...i believe it will okay over time. hope your life is awesome as well.

by the way...applicable ONLY to my x-aqua case.

this is an example of how the conversation 'some' of us here want so badly to have with my ex would go:
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Vll's x-aqua: Halo?

Super Dxp Member: Is this Vll's ex-girlfriend?

Vll's x-aqua: Who da heck is Vll? Is he/she a person? I never heard of such an awful name! Not even when I went to Iceland?and I did like the food though?

Super Dxp Member: What? Anyway, he is your ex-boyfriend who is a member of Dxpnet.com?

Vll's x-aqua: What da heck is Dxp? Is this the Girls Scouts Club again?!! I don't have money for more cookies friends! I got to buy new Christmas lights of all types for next year too ya know? So get the F** off!

Super Dxp Member: (?silence?) ?uh?no, lady, you got it wrong. I am a formal member of Dxpnet.com, a site. I'm part of a forum about zodiacal signs.

Vll's x-aqua: Oh great, so now you guys are not happy with commercials on TV and now you want to sell your indecent lies over the phone? By the way, why is the president still sending people to Irak when there were never ever any lethal weapons found or were they? I don't understand why the left is so left sometimes and the right doesn't get it?me and this guy I used to date used to talk about that a lot?hmmm

Super Dxp Member: Huh? No, what I am here for is to know the truth?the?

Vll's x-aqua: Well, that would be awesome!! I want to know that too. Is just too hard sometimes?sigh?I believe in it, I just don't know what is it ya know?

Super Dxp Member: Okay, I'll make it simple and clear for you?

Vll's x-aqua: Uh sorry stranger but this is getting way too boring and my kayak is loosing direction in this side of the river. Oh no and my friend's kid is sick today. I bet he is the one calling right now?I think I was supposed to call a lady I met today too, she has a back pain because her bike isn't working properly, I'm sure it has to do with the tire in the back, you what I'm saying? Mmm, I gottta go.

Super Dxp Member:?

Vll's x-aqua: I'll see you on Mardi Gras weekend though buddy! Take care of yourself and you be good ok! It may snow today!

Super Dxp Member:?.

Me: 🙂
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wow!!! is she really all over the place like that? ...extremely random?

and would she really be that crude to someone over the phone—


hmmm...doesn't sound anything like my aqua.

...but then again, she is a female.

aquaaqi!!!

"She's angry with you. Tell her that her hair is on fire and that she needs to brush the tangles out of her elbows before the capeworms tickle the elderberries"

hahaha...she loves her hair...so that may actually give her a heart attack. i couldn't!

:p

moonchild,

yes she is that random, but i used to love it! it gave me time to eat my food! i used to help her re-focus in subjects all the time. i actually think the aquas randomness is adorable...except when it is a serious talk or you are having a heart-to-heart conversation...then i need them to focus!

vll

and yeah she used to curse a lot...even when she said she was going to get better she said, "f** i keep on doing it...f**"

and it wasn't my cup of tea at all...she was the only girl i dated who caused that much, lol, but then again...she was very smart...so she made up for that.

anyhow, point of the story is...she woudln't have a great conversation with any dxpnet member at this point...especially about me...if ever :p lol thinking about it...makes me laugh so hard! lol

my aqua is not at all random...
he never jumps from subject to subject like that...but he is also not much of a talker. he is a cap/aqua so maybe that is why...he is VERY quiet, shy and reserved like a cap...

i guess you have less time to eat then! :p unless you both like silence...hmmm

that aqua girl was a talker, but so am i...she is the smack talker though...me, not so much...but give me few drinks and then i smack talk...like i know the universe! 🙂

otherwise i'm kinda shy myself...unless i know someone really well.

vll

i am pretty quiet myself, but not as quiet as he is...
so i am usually the one talking his ear off!!! and he eats really fast and i eat super slooooow...which he is not a big fan of 😉

opcorz i do have lots of friends. i'd rather have friends who stabs me at my front than stabs me at my back.


no. definitely, you're not letting them drown. that's another way of letting them struggle on how to learn how to swim.

mr. virgowithalittlelibra, i think if you want to learn and be close more to God like you always wanted, then stop talking about bad things about your girl and be mature enough to handle the consequences of your own choice.

most especially, stop believing in astrology. do you realize it's paganism?

what the hell are you doing here then vgurl? you hypocite!


maybe i can ask him that too? can i?

so stop your damn bitterness.

LOL

well friends...and non-haters 😉

i went to church the other night...and i wanted to share something i learned that helped me to regain hope from the state where i am.

sometimes...we have to let go in order to get...and life is too short to hold on to resentments and hurt...so i decided to release all these feelings i've had of dissapointment for once that night...and you know...i feel so much peace.

leokitten, tamara, tanya, lady m, aquaqi, starfish, moonchild, mr. balloon...

i know we all been through times of dissapointment...but i really want to encourage you to see that after a storm we can all see calm waters again...that's how i'm beginning to feel right now...

i decided i'm going to remain single for a while...not sure how long, but right now...focusing on other important and missed matters of my heart is helping me tons.

btw, as far as astrology...i think in the world of christianity there are different believes with that. personally i don't read horoscopes nor believe much of that...but i do see patterns in personality traits in people from different signs. i think there is a range of believes regarding that.

i think we all have tendencies by the sign we got, but sometimes we can use for the best or worst...to encourage or harm...and this is applicable to every sign, including virgos, aquas, cancers, piscis, leos...we can always meet people who use those qualities for good or bad...and also extremist of each sign.

later gators! have a wonderful morning!

WOW! VLL.. I read your first post and WOW.. is all I can say. I was not expecting that one as we are usually not good liers.. and prefer to be painfully honest at all cost just to preserve our peace of mind. Rarely do you hear of an aqua cheating.. it just isn't us. So.. I have to eat my words, because I encouraged you to stay with her even though you had doubts. I wish things had worked out differently but I am sure she will see the error of her ways and be saddened also, eventually.. are you sure she is not using drugs?? (playing) Not sure what she is going through, but you stay strong as it appears you are doing and going to church can only help to strengthen your spirit.. life lessons are important stepping stones to greater awareness of ourselves and what we need.

aquarianbrat and leokitten

well, to each is given what each can bear...i guess i must go through this for a reason.

and you know...i've seen really great virgos and some so not...and it must be likewise in the aquarian world. so reiniba is right...my x may have been the 'friends with benefits' type...and she doesn't think the way i do about relationships...she has a very weird view of commitment and relationships, now that i have clearly...

so in her mind, commitment meant, she being commtiment to me when we would hang out...and she also justified her cheating by saying that she didn't feel so sure maybe towards the end that she was ready for that...thus she thinks it's okay to be true to herself...but she doesn't realize what damage that was for me...

either way, what is done is done and i'm moving on.

happy days to all the aquas who have birthdays this month!!

vll

hey vll, glad to hear you are doing well. you seem to be handling the situation to the best of your ability...and it nice to hear that you have been doing some soul searching in the last coupls of days!!! you will be just fine, actually even better than before. this was a really good learning lesson for you more than anything else, and that is what life is all about. continue to focus on you and grow...

talk soon...