Missed up...

So...I stressed myself out until I became real sick..I have to see a DR on next week. While I Was in the hosptital...thinking...It was not just this thing with the Aqua I was with..but life. But with him...I am just at a loss..He may not have been into me..but he would leave come back..leave..and I would let him. It was a few things that bothered me..and I wanted to know is this just a single Aqua or male Aqua thing. Why would he not tell me he was not intrested anymore? Let me txt constantly and he would ignore me? 2. When I asked him..just say it's over and you dont love me..he say you need help..but never would respond. Then tells me you wonder why I pulled back from you..My question is...Why cant the just do?? Why drag people around by the heart? I told him he really broke my heart...he never responded...I am now in that place of we can not be we ever..so many said he will try and come back..I am so emotionally not ready at all to deal with anything about him..Is that a true? or will he stay on his side and keep it moving..I felt that me emotional Out burst were given because of him ignoring me...I am a virgo by the way..one thing I learned about Aquas..Never love them more then they love you..

And I meant I MESSED UP..lol..On meds..sorry..loopy ^_^

My aqua ex treated me like this too. It was awful. I never thought I'd get over it. But I did.

You really forget about it. Nothing ever matters as much as you think it does when you living in the emotional part of your brain.

You need to live in your wise mind now. I agree with Starfish take care of yourself and everything that sucks right now will change.

sounds like hes concluded your not for him but hes considering using you for sex until something better comes along. I think aqua can be very distant and not see it as a big deal and they find it puzzling when someone is being clingy. Because they dont NEED you they cant relate to you needing them

Posted by Starfish225
Girl, get yourself together..NO MAN is worth losing your mind over..I can take some things but when you start
messing with my head its a wrap. Once you lose your mind there is nothing else to lose you might as well lay down and die.
Get you together girl, cause I promise you he is fine and doing him and her and her and her..

SO true StarFish...I was stressed over so many things..and he just took the cake for me. I guess I gave him to much credit for being a man and being honest like the Aqua Charts say.

Posted by michellemabelle
sounds like hes concluded your not for him but hes considering using you for sex until something better comes along. I think aqua can be very distant and not see it as a big deal and they find it puzzling when someone is being clingy. Because they dont NEED you they cant relate to you needing them

What I learned is this type of man set women back so far if they are in healing mode. They are so toxic that I don't believe the KNOW they are. I don't car WHAT sign they are if a man has respect for him self,brought up right and has some time of morals he would be honest no matter if it hurts. This was sitation gone wrong. I wont give it credit saying it was a relationship. I wanted to do a hit and run..he would not allow it. He controled everything about this, when we saw each other,talked,the whole atmophere. I was just on a rebound from somethings in my life..and he seemed to have said the right things. I accept my own mistakes but refuse to be the one that messed up anything. But when you really think about it..the foundation was not based on love but lust. We had a very strong connection and attraction..but he has a very manipulation spirit and temprament. It was like he made it so hard for me to love him on purpose but yet wanted me to. I lost myself some where..not just in this..and I believe he took advantage of that. He has issues as well, commitment,communication,self esteem, health*recovered from prostate cancer, acid reflux,diabites* but MOST of that was from stress..If he was NOT SO ANGRY he would have some great loves or a love that would be there for him..and he would be able to give it. He is allot of work and cant keep any relationship..but ok with sex..but he craves more..but HE wont let HIM have it..either way..this has made me a better woman..I was hurt..very..angery..not it is calming. I have to just get him and us out of my mind.I am to pretty to be sick, and sad. To much to do in life...

Sorry about the typos..sleep smh

LonLon girl when are you going to WAKE UP!! Why do you do this to yourself over a man? You've been on DXP for awhile now and I have yet to see you successfully love yourself enough not to allow a man to pull your strings and use you, you let them treat you so damn poorly (no man can take you seriously, nor love and a respect a woman like that) and no one can really help you with your self esteem unless you want to be helped.

Until you fix your self esteem you will not be successful with a man nor with being in a relationship based on trust, love and mutual respect, you'll continually experience some kind of emotional/mental maybe even physical neglect. You give men all the power, the power to hurt you, reject you, ignore you, treat you like shit and wonder why they do what they do, you let em do it, you need some help to help yourself get to a space were you love yourself enough never to allow a man to disrespect and run all over you. Self love is crucial and if you're making yourself so stressed out and sick over a man then you are not loving yourself, you are not taking good care of yourself and no man is worth losing YOU.

Posted by Starfish225
Those things that dont kill us only makes us stronger. Please find the true silver lining is all of this. We at times think when we go through a bad relationship and a man treats us bad its about him. Its not 100% true. Alot of it is us inner things that we need to deal with. I would be wondering how the hell I attracted a man with all this damage and baggage. "LAW OF ATTRACTION" is real. Now I am sure you have some ideas of whats what here so I would try to work on that. I do beleive its the energy that we put out that can attract certain ppl. If your beautiful to men you can attract all kind of men. But what sticks for me is who I allow to be and stay in my space. I wish you the best for a few reason and I hope you get it together, let him go bc if you dont your gonna lose your mind and he from what I see is not worth a tear let alone losing your mind..Take care of yourself sista!!

Amen! That right there ^^

Posted by tiki33
LonLon girl when are you going to WAKE UP!! Why do you do this to yourself over a man? You've been on DXP for awhile now and I have yet to see you successfully love yourself enough not to allow a man to pull your strings and use you, you let them treat you so damn poorly (no man can take you seriously, nor love and a respect a woman like that) and no one can really help you with your self esteem unless you want to be helped.

Until you fix your self esteem you will not be successful with a man nor with being in a relationship based on trust, love and mutual respect, you'll continually experience some kind of emotional/mental maybe even physical neglect. You give men all the power, the power to hurt you, reject you, ignore you, treat you like shit and wonder why they do what they do, you let em do it, you need some help to help yourself get to a space were you love yourself enough never to allow a man to disrespect and run all over you. Self love is crucial and if you're making yourself so stressed out and sick over a man then you are not loving yourself, you are not taking good care of yourself and no man is worth losing YOU.

I had gotten sick due to other stress..laid off my job, son legal trouble,mother was sick, then trying to find a job, then this situation with him. It was just TOO much for me..But your right..I allowed him to run over me..and I dont know why. I sat and thought about my life..and I am at that CHANGE moment now. After being in the hosptial..it did something drastic to me. I dont wan to settle for nothing less. I am working on building self up now. I took myself of the market of dating until my emotions and balance of things change. I thank you for your wisdom!

Posted by Starfish225
Those things that dont kill us only makes us stronger. Please find the true silver lining is all of this. We at times think when we go through a bad relationship and a man treats us bad its about him. Its not 100% true. Alot of it is us inner things that we need to deal with. I would be wondering how the hell I attracted a man with all this damage and baggage. "LAW OF ATTRACTION" is real. Now I am sure you have some ideas of whats what here so I would try to work on that. I do beleive its the energy that we put out that can attract certain ppl. If your beautiful to men you can attract all kind of men. But what sticks for me is who I allow to be and stay in my space. I wish you the best for a few reason and I hope you get it together, let him go bc if you dont your gonna lose your mind and he from what I see is not worth a tear let alone losing your mind..Take care of yourself sista!!

So true lady..I am focusing on cleaning out my spiritual house, mind and emotions. If I attracted something like that..and then let it run over me..that is way out of order..and I can't blame no one but me. I am just glad I was not in it to long and that my eyes are open to me..and what I have NOT been doing. Life is to short to wast on regreat. I found another job..and working on my next chapter as we speak..and that is healing ane rebuilding. Thanks SSSOOO much for the responce.