I was about to do something so stupid ! Venting
So I am sun Taurus Virgo rising Venus in Taurus ... I almost fell into desperation just to have somebody around ...
I don’t have sex at all... I haven’t since 2016 .. of course no guys wants me because of it ... just fear getting used and it’s not a good feeling ... so I stopped having sex unless I wanted to do it .. I dont wanna do it just because someone else wants it ... I want a mental connection first ... of course I haven’t got it ... like ever ! So Tried to convince myself to have sex with this guy only because I want him around longer but of course when the time came it didn’t feel right so I didn’t go through with it ... ... I just can’t help but think how in and out he is in my life. and I kno having sex with him wouldn’t change that ...especially if he isn’t looking for anything serious anyways ...
I don’t have sex at all... I haven’t since 2016 .. of course no guys wants me because of it ... just fear getting used and it’s not a good feeling ... so I stopped having sex unless I wanted to do it .. I dont wanna do it just because someone else wants it ... I want a mental connection first ... of course I haven’t got it ... like ever ! So Tried to convince myself to have sex with this guy only because I want him around longer but of course when the time came it didn’t feel right so I didn’t go through with it ... ... I just can’t help but think how in and out he is in my life. and I kno having sex with him wouldn’t change that ...especially if he isn’t looking for anything serious anyways ...