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Apr 13, 2005Comments: 0 · Posts: 44084 · Topics: 685
That's what I get for expecting ... shit doesn't work, I'm telling you. If you expect something .. you're foolish, such as me.
Oh well .. this was suppose to be about sex .. hijacked another thread, sorry !!
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Sep 13, 2007Comments: 0 · Posts: 455 · Topics: 31
"I can't find a reason. My plan was flawed ... he can handle being sexless !!!!"
Let me say this: Most people spend an entire life time trying to find unconditional love. Only a small percentage of us are blessed to receive and experience it. You have this right now. Enjoy it and appreciate it and embrace it. Because if you walk away from this man, you may NEVER experience it again. And not only that, realize this: What you have right now in the palm of your hands, there are plenty of people in this world who are alone & lonley and can only "dream" about having what you already have.
Is it truly worth it?
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OK, BIG announcement. It was 50/50 on this issue of "to call or not to call" and I finally got over my anger and hurt and decided to call. I called 3X in fact only to have the phone go immediately to voice mail. I had tooo much to say to leave it in a voice mail so I didn't leave a message. So, I wrote him an email explaining that I would have preferred to speak to him in person but since he seems to have vanished without a trace for 4 weeks I have chosen not to be in the relationship with him since I seem to be the only one in it!! It wasn't a mean spirited letter at all. Just an honest choice to not want to be a part of the receiving end of a lot of hurt and neglect. I did question the integrity of why he came looking for me and asking for the relationship in the first place and how I feel he used the friendship to bear weight upon his intentions to convince me it would all be worth the risk of going from friends to something more. What happened I asked him?
That letter I sent 3 days ago. Then, I got a call from my brother telling my father was really sick in the hospital and that triggered recent feelings of the loss for my friend who died and then how QS's friend had a trauma with his child and......well, you get the picture. I started feeling guilty. I remembered somebody said that "maybe he's just giving you space to grieve". OK, maybe so but for 4 weeks?? It occurred to me that maybe he was experiencing something traumatic too and that's why he didn't call. Skreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeetch (the sound of brakes in my head). No, stop it! There is still no excuse for not picking up the freakin phone or sending an email!!! I'm not going to fall back into that saga again. Enough already. The mere fact that he has not even answered my email puts another spin on speculations about that for me. Why doesn't he respond to it? Should he? Will he? arrrrrrrrghhhhh I hate this!!!! No, it was a huge mistake to write for the so called "closure". But there is one tiny thing that makes me feel a little bit better. He has officially been dumped. That can't feel good for him but how would I know? DOH! another annoying question I'll probably never have the answer to.