Reexperiencing trauma & seeking old traumaexperiences
"Do I go back into past memories to win the war against my mom?"
You can't win the war. Because you didn't actually take part in one. You were born a prisoner. You had no rights. Not even the right to complain for being abused. Fighting or not, made little difference.
Your "job" was to get the hell out of there. Be free again.
It wasn't your war. Please understand that and get out. It wasn't even personal. It could have been anyone else in your place. It's not because you were sickly! A normal parent would have loved you and protected you even more. Your mother was not normal.
You can't win the war. Because you didn't actually take part in one. You were born a prisoner. You had no rights. Not even the right to complain for being abused. Fighting or not, made little difference.
Your "job" was to get the hell out of there. Be free again.
It wasn't your war. Please understand that and get out. It wasn't even personal. It could have been anyone else in your place. It's not because you were sickly! A normal parent would have loved you and protected you even more. Your mother was not normal.
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"Do I go back into past memories to win the war against my mom?"
You can't win the war. Because you didn't actually took part in one. You were born a prisoner. You had no rights. Not even the right to complain for being abused. Fighting or not, made little difference.
Your "job" was to get the hell out of there. Be free again.
It wasn't your war. Please understand that and get out. It wasn't ever personal. It could have been anyone else in your place. It's not because you were sickly! A normal parent would have loved you and protected you even more. Your mother was not normal.
You can't win the war. Because you didn't actually took part in one. You were born a prisoner. You had no rights. Not even the right to complain for being abused. Fighting or not, made little difference.
Your "job" was to get the hell out of there. Be free again.
It wasn't your war. Please understand that and get out. It wasn't ever personal. It could have been anyone else in your place. It's not because you were sickly! A normal parent would have loved you and protected you even more. Your mother was not normal.