We are not in a committment. We had decided to get back together to focus on being friends better first then if that worked have a relationship in the future. We said we were not looking to be with new people. We made a plan to not involved it on a physical level together until we were feeling the same thing and in love. We like eachother however both our hearts still were with someone from our past. We have both talked about those people to each other, it was something when we dated I spoke of Virgo yet it was not until I saw him again he'd told me of this women he's known a long time before he met me. We tried being together and like each other but him and I had not known each other that long before we dated months back. We were not in love with eachother from dating 3 months knowning each other 6 months total. This was a building period to know each other better for that reason because its something in the past we did not get a chance to do. We had a talk last night about that. I told him what happened since we left off where I didn't know what was with Virgo. We are on the same page. It did not change anything between us because we both want to know each others lives and came back into things with saying honestly what was still in our hearts.
In my head I had made it black and white about closure with Virgo. Either Virgo is here or he is not. Thats the way I see things for being emotionally involved with someone. No half way's wanted. In reality though, life is not like that people do carry people in their hearts perhaps sometimes in a box to take back out if it meant that much to them later. I was not following my heart fully before. I was saying and doing mentally what I thought I should do. Be angry at him for this for what I "saw". Yet what I knew inside myself and believed of Virgo deep down I let get changed in view by people around me.
I let myself get defensive and be like its this or that on the outside. But inside I still believed in him from what I felt in the past of who he was, thats why I hung on so long in my heart refusing to let go of him. When he left on the outside I gave him that space without contacting him. Because I wanted him to be happy despite I was sad he was gone and confused. In my heart I did not let go. I had faith in what I felt when we were together was real despite what others said and hope he'd return if he felt the same when he was ready. I told my ex this before this happened how I felt, he related to me and said it bothered him greatly if someone just left him without an answer when it seemed so sudden. He likes to weigh both sides in seeing someones issue like I. He is skeptical about astrology but he listens to it. I said I felt like things were oddily timing for a reason in our lives coming back together to talk and he said he felt like things were happening for a reason oddily that actually made him believe. He said he was learning things of himself and I felt that mirrored back the same way from what was taking place.
And just to not confuse what I was talking about above..the statement below I was referring to my ex, we had made a promise to not have a physical relationship or be in something committed. We were committed to knowing each other better. Before when I was writing I was on the black/white scenerio in my head about needing to put Virgo in a file in my head labeled active or not I guess. I really did not need that I found and see now to make it like that. My ex showed me that actually by his own experience in his life that was still inside him.
" We are not in a committment. We had decided to get back together to focus on being friends better first then if that worked have a relationship in the future. We said we were not looking to be with new people. We made a plan to not involved it on a physical level together until we were feeling the same thing and in love. We like eachother however both our hearts still were with someone from our past."
I dated another pisces and it was great. I will live and die and never understand why females have so many issues with the male fish, they are like most men-very simple.
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Sep 25, 2008Comments: 0 · Posts: 500 · Topics: 16
...sounds like his b-day is in JULY. No?
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"1- Number one Rule: Don't sit on my bed with Day clothes on!"
-I can kinda agree with this. My mom was a stickler for this. Her motto "I don't know where your ass has been LMFAO!"
"2- I get ordered, "wash your hands!", when I enter his apartment."
For me just wash your hands before you go into my fridge.
"3- We both wash vegetables and fruit with soap, but he inspects mine. (we both are a bit on the nutty side, but he beats me)"
-No so much. lol
"4- Before a kiss he demands, "brush your teeth thoroughly!". He washed his brush with soap yesterday before brushing his teeth. Then I watched his process... lol... curiosity to his methods.... there was no spot inside his mouth unbrushed, even up to underneath his tongue was cared for with extreme attentiveness."
- I'd only ask that if your breathe was hot enough to curl back my eyelashes.
"5- many more clean freakish habits but his apartment is not super clean at all."
It sounds like he's obsessive compulsive about certain things.
NewDayRising--Don't assume because you've read his work that you actually get him. To be honest, I'm very disappointed by your unwillingness to participate in a discussion and effectively articulate his philosophies without repeating cliche phrases a 10 year old who has access to google can produce. If you do feel like you REALLY understand his theories, wouldn't you be in an even better position to help someone like me understand. But instead of answering my questions, you respond with snarky remarks that serve more to deflect my questions than to really drive any point of your own. Don't hide. I just want to learn. If I'm wrong, I can just as easily admit it...it doesn't cost me anything.
An update in this situation & some advice appreciated:
1) Hot + cold behaviour continued all last year.
2) I felt the reason why he acted like this was he never truly thought I genuinely liked him deep down.
3) His visa ran out in Dec so couldn't stay in the country. Before he left:
- 2 weeks before he left I told him I thought he was amazing. He said "I think u think I'm amazing, but u know when something is actually half as amazing as it really is?" I said "No, I think ur amazing". I said I'd not felt like this for anybody, he said "I don't believe u, u were in a 12 yr relationship. Ur naive". I don't think he's very confident in himself + my 2nd point.
- At his farewell party, Jeff Buckley, Last Goodbye came on the iPod, I don??t know how. He touched me, told me to listen to it and said it was poignant. I??ve never heard this song before, the lyrics are heart wrenching
- A day before he left, I sent him a heartfelt email. Telling him how special he is to me, how I've not met anyone who makes me happy as he does, and I said I hope u realise what u mean to me.
4) I didn't see him for 2mths as he was travelling. Without any distraction of seeing him, no contact and some time apart, I realised I DID absolutely 100% truly adore him.
5) He was back in the country in Feb. I invited him out to the theatre, just me & him, our first ever date (a year to the date we met, I don??t think he realised though). He came, we had a great time, chatting, laughing. Nothing happened between us but I was so happy. Our arms were touching all throughout the show.
6) At his farewell in Feb, we were hugging, saying goodbye. I said "I can't believe I'm not going to see you again". He said "I'm pretty sure it'll happen". I said "But ur rubbish at keeping in touch", he said "I know I'm useless, I'm terrible. But I will see you again. We'll work something out.??