That is a very good question LilyTree. I"d like to know that too.
I did talk to him today - yeah I called. He did answer and we talked briefly. He sounded like he is dealing with all the stuff, and is stressing about money.
I wanted to talk about a lot of things but mostly I just listened and asked about his day. I joked with him that he has so much stuff going on I needed to flip the page over and keep taking notes.
My birthday is coming up. The dramatic cancer in me has already played the scene in my head where he forgot it until 2 days after. Yeah the full dramatic scene complete with tears has been played out. lol I haven't told him that. Haven't told anyone that. I do much of my cancer moody dramas in my own mind, and in my journals. I don't lash out. In fact I so rarely get upset that he says "you let me get away with murder." That is not a good thing.
lol I like to think that I am perhaps a bit like a swan on the pond - smooth and coasting on the water but if you ever look underneath, the feet are paddling like crazy. I do stay honest with him but he doesn't need to know how often I can fret and go through the dramatics called wanting attention but will never ask for it.
Deep down I know that is why I want to stay communicating with him this week. Because my birthday is next week and if I am truly honest with myself I want to have him with me - saves me from explaining to my family why he isn't. How do I say, I don't know maybe he forgot?
And then at the same time, I think this is something I do need to know. despite him telling me he loves me, am I important enough to him that he will remember my birthday without me reminding him? and if he forgets (like the scene I've already played - then what?)
I know I am making way too much of something that hasn't happened. I know. I know. lol it stays in my mind and in my journals.
Gee perhaps I too like to punish myself a bit before speaking up.
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Feb 14, 2013Comments: 3 · Posts: 531 · Topics: 87
So there is this libra girl in our big group of friends..
we were sortof friends for a while but i feel like we are both secretly jealous of eachother sometimes and both want the spotlight on us. I'm a scorpio so i'll be the first to admitt - i love attention and the spotlight! i cant help it. Things happened in the past between me and her and now we both just dislike eachother. Anyway, after looking at both of our charts i noticed a couple of the same placings as one another, im wondering why cant we get along? i feel like we clash, also i was never really that comfortable to be myself around her which is unusual for me..
my chart:
Sun Scorpio
Moon Capricorn
Mercury Scorpio
Venus Libra
Mars Gemini
Jupiter Leo
Saturn Capricorn
Uranus Capricorn
Neptune Capricorn
Pluto Scorpio
Lilith Sagittarius
her chart:
Sun Libra
Moon Leo
Mercury Libra
Venus Libra
Mars Gemini
Jupiter Leo
Saturn Capricorn
Uranus Capricorn
Neptune Capricorn
Pluto Scorpio
Lilith Sagittarius