Is dangerous what you want..... I can understand what you want, in your mind is also a curiosity how will be.... etc.. the same as it was with that kiss... but did you asked yourself what will be if you fall inlove deep with him if the "event" will happen and then he will rejecting you because he will know he can't be with you ? ... I can tell you, this thing will kill you, so run away now of him when is the right time ! Other way you may know the big pain in this story...