Am I completely unreasonable or what?

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Posted by LostinPhilly
I am so desperate to forget about this man, I don't know what to do at this point.

I met Mr Pisces a year ago on a dating website. We hit it off right away. Actually, I remember feeling a connection from before he and I started talking. He's the one who messaged me first. We talked non-stop for about a month. Then we met in real life. It was great. He asked me out on a date. He never followed through with it and cancelled on me 3 times. It fizzled out, we stopped talking.
Fast forward, he sent me a message on Valentine's Day to apologize and asked for a second shot. We started talking again and it felt as though no time had passed. I usually do hold grudges, but I didn't with him. We went on two dates which both lasted an entire day! The physical attraction was amazing, I had never experienced such intensity. We couldn't get enough of each other. Unfortunately, he had ulterior motives as I declined sex on date #2 and he pulled away afterwards. He ignored every single one of my texts (including the one meant to wish him a happy birthday).
About a month after our last date, I found out he had lost his job and moved back to the Canada. I know now it's over but it's been a year since I met him and I think of him as much as I did last year. Sure, he was a j*rk to me, but it seems I can't get over him. It's not that I can't get over his physical appearance or brains, there's just something I can't describe. It has nothing to do with his appearance or brains because I barely remember his face/conversations. It's more of an internal feeling that prevents me from letting go, rather than actual reasons.
I don't know what to do. I've been hooked on this man for the past year. It had never happened to me before. As a Gemini Mooner here, I usually move on pretty easily after a couple of weeks. However, I'm still stuck with the same feelings I had last year. It's driving me insane as I have no clue what to do. I've tried dating other guys and it didn't work because I'd come back home sad wishing he was the one I went out with. I feel so stupid and insane, it makes zero sense to me.
What's wrong with me?

This all happened a YEAR ago?
Speechless to why you're hanging on to that.

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