well, this sounds right... up to now, I just don't think we managed to read each other well. I think his reasons for doing things are complex, even though everything he doeas seems effortless and casual. he now builds and sells properties. I on the other hand am a scientist, a researcher. I know we are like night and day, but everything about him was quiet and slow, it was not that when I saw him I fell in love, we know each other for years, I even had a thing with his friend, some ten years ago.
sorry if everything is upside down, but I write as it comes.
deep down I think my train has passed and there is no other coming, but there is that little bit of hope... to act? I really don't like to push things, I mean just the fact that I'm here on this site, means that I'm scared to loose the idea of him, and that the reality is probably that he, as u said had put me long ago in the 'friends' category. and letting go at the end of the day is the only thing I can do (by the way, I say this and than whish that someone tells me that not all is lost, bla bla, because that belief that maybe one day...gives u that energy to go on. as u can see I'm confused..
if u have anything to add, I appreciate it, if not thanx anyway.xx