Drug Recovery and Loss of Loving Relationship
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I'm Ryan. I hope someone can help. I'm going to be completely honest during this post. I have a drug addiction to cocaine and marijuana which I hid from my girlfriend. She had no idea about it. Eventually, I needed help and didn't want to lie anymore, so came clean. Since, I have completed an IOP program and gone to Narcotics Anonymous meetings regularly. I have a sponsor and do stepwork regularly. I'm 51 days clean today. I have been very positive during my withdrawals and have not lashed out at her at all. I never have either because I love her. So, everything was going in the right direction, and she was supporting me. She told me she was proud of me all the time and wrote me cards telling me she knew I could do it forever. However, a few weeks ago her attitude and personality completely changed. She disconnected from me. I'm not sure what happened because she doesn't communicate with me when something is wrong. I must add that she also has a lot of issues going on with her sister, depression about her parents going back to Florida for the winter, and her eating disorder pretty much being in full effect again. She pretty much stopped communicating with me so I really haven't known what was going on with her unless she lashed out at me, which she never used to do. I've been trying everything to save this relationship but she says she doesn't think she can trust me 15 years from now because of my drug addiction. She says I'm self-centered. But, she gets jealous that her sister is home this summer which has caused her less time to spend with her parents. If anything, she seems like the self centered one to me. Also, her sister moved in with her after being raped in Florida. To make matters worse, I think her sister was jealous of our wonderful relationship. As a way to outlet her being raped, she spread rumors that I was spreading rumors she was raped, which is completely untrue. She said that my friend told her via facebook message, however, she has never showed my gf the messages. And, my friend still had his message with her and it was no where to be seen. The other thing is that she says drugs go against her morals but she used to do coke and weed substantially with an ex bf in the past. So, I'm not sure if your morals can just change like that? Anyways, she broke up with me last night for all these reasons. I'm heartbroken and don't know what to do. I don't plan to use or hurt myself. I just really wish I could
I'm Ryan. I hope someone can help. I'm going to be completely honest during this post. I have a drug addiction to cocaine and marijuana which I hid from my girlfriend. She had no idea about it. Eventually, I needed help and didn't want to lie anymore, so came clean. Since, I have completed an IOP program and gone to Narcotics Anonymous meetings regularly. I have a sponsor and do stepwork regularly. I'm 51 days clean today. I have been very positive during my withdrawals and have not lashed out at her at all. I never have either because I love her. So, everything was going in the right direction, and she was supporting me. She told me she was proud of me all the time and wrote me cards telling me she knew I could do it forever. However, a few weeks ago her attitude and personality completely changed. She disconnected from me. I'm not sure what happened because she doesn't communicate with me when something is wrong. I must add that she also has a lot of issues going on with her sister, depression about her parents going back to Florida for the winter, and her eating disorder pretty much being in full effect again. She pretty much stopped communicating with me so I really haven't known what was going on with her unless she lashed out at me, which she never used to do. I've been trying everything to save this relationship but she says she doesn't think she can trust me 15 years from now because of my drug addiction. She says I'm self-centered. But, she gets jealous that her sister is home this summer which has caused her less time to spend with her parents. If anything, she seems like the self centered one to me. Also, her sister moved in with her after being raped in Florida. To make matters worse, I think her sister was jealous of our wonderful relationship. As a way to outlet her being raped, she spread rumors that I was spreading rumors she was raped, which is completely untrue. She said that my friend told her via facebook message, however, she has never showed my gf the messages. And, my friend still had his message with her and it was no where to be seen. The other thing is that she says drugs go against her morals but she used to do coke and weed substantially with an ex bf in the past. So, I'm not sure if your morals can just change like that? Anyways, she broke up with me last night for all these reasons. I'm heartbroken and don't know what to do. I don't plan to use or hurt myself. I just really wish I could
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4. BIRD - This animal represents the kind of relationship that you would like to build with your partner. You chose Bird - You want a long-lasting relationship.
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Haha yeah, that's the one. Pure Elvis, I swear. On both. Not as much on the other ones you've posted though, so I can see why you'd say "certain gestures". If you're a Sag Rising than there's a good chance that your Cap Mars is in 1st house, which would give you some Cap physical traits as well.
Posted by TxOgal
Thank you! It is actually funny that twins/triplets are so different, it didnt cross my mind, but its SO true though!
youre welcome. I have learned alot through astrology why people are who they are. And why air, for example is COLD.
i have witnessed in real life stellium air...more than 3 in air in personal planets are very cold. But that doesnt necessarily mean they are bad people. Just not fulfilling. Fire stellium is good, as I'm married to one,but his fire stellium and water placements, some are situated in air houses. He understands enough to equate air and fire together. But not too much.
Alot of people don't want to know the TRUTH about stuff, i notice.
I have all three water houses filled, with water placements, and i need water in my relationships. (i've been with a stellium air and stellium fire and he was very cruel, violent, and very cold -- no empathy) But i also am dominant earth, so i also need a partner who has a "connection" and understands structure and grounding.
When they say Earth is boring...that is so true. More planets, like a stellium in earth, is really boring. I've witnessed it in my relatives in my life, but i love them lots cause theyre my family and they are with me through thick and thin. (i am dominant earth so i am a huge homebody and sit still at home doing alot of work and caretaking at home alot)
Also, just because i've had these experiences, it's still limited. Because when i do research....there are even stellium earths and stellium water people who are cruel and sadistic and evil too. So you never know....you just never know....
that's why it's never good to niche astrology like that.
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Hi--I'm posting this on the Scorp board because it gets a lot of traffic and most Scorps inherently get the afterlife. But I am moved to offer my services of speaking with loved ones from the other side and offer this up to you now.
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Good morning Fixed.
Its so nice to be able to communicate with someone that is in the know on how this crazy afterlife works. We get to speak on higher level things, like your spirit guides.click to expand
Sorry IS...you don't get to change it up from someone from the after life to a spirit guide. Totally two different things. It's one or the other. Two separate entitities.
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* I mean if you have a conscience... you wouldn't do that, because it is in truth very cruel.
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My Mercury is also in Leo and his is also in Cancer. I've researched about Cancer and Leo compatibility and most say that regardless of the opposite elemental signs, it'll still work out. Do you have an more added insight on that?
Also, correct me if I'm wrong, but I've read on another forum that Cancers with Gemini in their Venus have tendencies to cheat...? Is that right??
I would say tend to have a hard time getting close to someone and jump from person to person rather quickly. That is the situation of the Cancer sun/Venus Gem I know. I didn't ask him if he cheated. If I ever get a chance to I will.
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I see... I don't know him so well just yet, but based on that and if he does stay true to his Aquarius moon, I have a feeling it'll be easy for him to move on to someone else, lol.
I don't really know though. It might just be the Scorpio moon in me thinking crap. Pfft
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This is kind of how I look more on every day rather going out:
Aries/Cap/Libra
I see the Libra and Aries in you.
Not sure about the cap.click to expand
This.
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scorp sun, cap moon, cap rising
Unmistakably Scorp.
Agreed! Not seeing the double-cap influence, 'cause dem Scorpio features are extra-potent.
Lethal Scorp features. Lasers.click to expand
+1 To Scorpio