You are right I am the only one invested. I didn't think he was recording because he loved me I just thought he was insecure.
I'm going on a trip to see my mom after which I'm going to get my things from his home and my cat. He acts as though he doesn't want me around the house but I will be getting my stuff.
I have a vengeful streak which I'm trying not to give in to because I don't want to waste my energy. Im going to use the next couple of weeks to chill out and refocus. I don't think I need to verbalise that I don't want to be friends I think my actions will show him. I think I need to stop entertaining him.
I'm so frustrated with myself I never act like this over anyone I let my guard down too soon.