Biggest Insecurity?

Posted by rakac
I think my biggest insecurity would be to be rejected and left by the persons i really care about, not like a smiple way, but in more complex, that's why i do everything on my own, i have friends and things like that, but i can never ask for help or something, it's not like they wouldn't help me, they would, but i think it's pride talking that i need and want to accomplish everything on my own, even a simplest tasks and the hardest one's, and that's deep psychological root, you do and try to do everything on your own because you're to afraid to let others help you, to afraid because if the person left you couldn't stand on your own 2 feet, i just don't want to rely on the person 2 much because i think i'm strong and others might not be as strong as me and couldn't handle it, some people wouldn't call that bad, but the truth is if you're unable to ask for help, you're just a person who's afraid of being hurt or rejected to much in my option, it's good to have a strong ground under your feet and know where you're going, to have a goal, a dream, a vision, but this road gets really lonely, you have friends, good one's that you could count on and rely on, but you just can't. It's a fight i feel i have to fight alone, i'm only 22 now and i don't know, i just look at people and i'm not judgemental or anything, i just don't want to be around most of the people, unhealthy, with no morals, no values, the more i grow the more i realise i need positive, strong people around me, with morals, values and knowledge, things like that, just simply being with these people you become more stronger, wiser, you expand your world more and more, you start to realise more things, you start to gain more confidence, you become a rival, motivator for others and they become motivation for you without you even realising it, damn an amazing feeling, an the amazing thing is, they are strong, have values, and morals, you know deep inside people like them would never leave y, they are part of you as much as you are part of them, but the wrong people in your life can take a part of you away , that's what scares me the most i think..... as strong as you are, it's the closest people that can hurt you the most, because they are inside and know your heart, they either protect it making you a better person overall, or they stab it with a poison dagger.. sorr for grammar tho .