Bad temper
Firerytruth, all you are saying make sense why?? I have asked him after his episodes every time, like last night why? if you don't love me you don't want a future with me then why you keep us in this rollercoaster, I told him every time that I agree I think is the best for both, why changing your mind always, I am not preventing from moving on. His answers are evasive and/ or I don't know or please now you want to start again, or I don't want to talk about this anymore. I ask to myself why you let him get away with it and I come to the conclusion looking at the pattern and his back to happy nothing happened mood, so here is me ok next time I will put my foot down and no matter what he thinks I am not going to make up and I am calling the real estate people, and like that has passed at least 2 years, when you are with the loving person, you tend to fall into the trap of, you know what, he is trying, he is just moody, he is blab la bla, and you keep excusing and justifying his behavior, then he has an exam, or his mom is coming, or is Christmas and then is new years so on so on, He doesn't even has the answer and if he has them he is keeping his plan for himself, I starting to think that all he tells me is absolutely true but he is just very calculating, now a lot is going on with him he needs a quiet place, steady so he can study, market is bad and he is waiting for his green card, better calm down, make her (me) think that everything is ok and when things are at the right place for him he would do something, Is not my age, insecurity or anything like that, it was a pure feeling that hold me there and believe it or not people like that look for somehow weak or soft people to manipulate and you have no idea how they manage and control your existence emotionally, until you put yourself together and walk out of it, which has come, so if you go back to my post I mentioned to do things carefully, I am traveling in few weeks, so it seems that there is always something, now let me ask you how would you do it, how in a smart and civilized way would you master your escape plan. The only thing we have together is the house. All my family is in another country , no money all my money is in the house and living expenses, we need to sell the house and then move on, my plan is to take the initiative a bring a realtor, bc. He just talk, talk and talk and doesn't do anything, so once he sees the agent maybe then he will understand that yes I do want to move on.