opinions welcome!
Depthcharge...Thank you so much for caring. It means alot.
What is it that would be ideal? Good question. I guess I dont feel like I can call him when i want (I totally can, but I feel clingy--not because of him but more because of me), or that I feel empowered from this whole thing. I dont feel the "freedom" as much as he does. But I WANT TO! I want to enjoy and be casual, and see him as he comes. this is exactly what I want.
Here's the funny thing: This whole thing obviously is for someone strong. And the confidence it requires is getting clearer and clearer. Not easy. I dont like being confronted with the fact that I feel insecure.
And its not just me. In determining the times we see each other, he appears to be firm and decisive (taking more initiative), but in bed...he's not confident at all actually. Almost to the point of not being open to learn from me, and even shame about his performance. There's a weird power dynamic there.
So to make matters more complex, he doesn't have all the control.
What is it that would be ideal? Good question. I guess I dont feel like I can call him when i want (I totally can, but I feel clingy--not because of him but more because of me), or that I feel empowered from this whole thing. I dont feel the "freedom" as much as he does. But I WANT TO! I want to enjoy and be casual, and see him as he comes. this is exactly what I want.
Here's the funny thing: This whole thing obviously is for someone strong. And the confidence it requires is getting clearer and clearer. Not easy. I dont like being confronted with the fact that I feel insecure.
And its not just me. In determining the times we see each other, he appears to be firm and decisive (taking more initiative), but in bed...he's not confident at all actually. Almost to the point of not being open to learn from me, and even shame about his performance. There's a weird power dynamic there.
So to make matters more complex, he doesn't have all the control.