official diagnosis and prognosis

Posted by P-Angel

I do have malignant cancer.


It started in my right adrenal gland, spread to my liver where a tumor was formed, and the spread to my lungs.


I start chemo on the 28th.


At the moment the focus is on my liver, the tumor is massive ... whereas the cancer nodules on my lungs are minimal in comparison. My oncologist says that the chemo should zap all of those cancer cells, and put the cancer in remission in my lungs.


However, my liver is in serious condition. The tumor has taken over 65% of my liver, and I'm damn lucky that I not riddled with infections, since the liver filters out all toxins in the body. The goal is to shrink the tumor and then keep it maintained.


He said there is no cure, which we all know, and the only thing he can do is to prolong my life by keeping the cancer in remission, and the tumor reduced.


The prognosis depends on how my body responds to the chemo treatments. If my liver shrinks and the other cancer cells go into remission, then I have a good 5 years. If my liver doesn't respond to treatments and they can't get it reduced ... then I won't make it through the summer, probably only a month or so. Because once my liver becomes severely compromised further, then I will be unable to fight off any illness, even a common cold or the flu could do me in.



So, just letting everyone know that if I suddenly stop posting, then you'll know why. I won't close the account down. I'll just vanish one day. When it gets to the point where I cannot even post any longer, then I'll update everyone so they know the end is near.



Happy trails, everyone ...... I'll see you all on the other side. In the meantime, if a ghost is haunting the fuck out of you and you know you've been a cunt and deserve it ..... yep, that would be me still kicking your ass.

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Posted by GetMisted
After her shit show following Nefer's passing..


I really have no sympathy for her. I hope it's a painful death.

I don't see how she was mean

I don't either.


I even went to look and read the topic,


there was nothing cruel about what she said or did,


it felt to me that she doesn't want nefer to go, because she was such a beautiful soul.


so it's more in denial and that it's all lies.

same.


she pointed that she likes Nefer (RIP) , she even send Nafer' family the money they've asked for


so i dont know how she's cruel only because she thinks Nefer family weren't grateful.


anyway, I'm lowkey glad P doesn't give a fuck and know who she truly is...people can bitch and whine as much as they want

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Posted by P-Angel

Posted by Leaves



tbh I hope you live and find peace. but in the end, it's what you want. There's alot to life and if you're excited for what's coming, then you have nothing to worry about

I am at peace, and very happy. It's funny how when people don't understand, they believe the person to be miserable or unhappy.


I love myself, just the way I am, and have been at peace with my life for many, many moons.


If I keep living, then that's great !!!!! I get to be with my husband and animals longer.

If I die, then that's great also. I get to move on to start another life experience in another form of existence.

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Posted by P-Angel


So, just letting everyone know that if I suddenly stop posting, then you'll know why. I won't close the account down. I'll just vanish one day. When it gets to the point where I cannot even post any longer, then I'll update everyone so they know the end is near.



Happy trails, everyone ...... I'll see you all on the other side. In the meantime, if a ghost is haunting the fuck out of you and you know you've been a cunt and deserve it ..... yep, that would be me still kicking your ass.

What can I say to someone who knows they're not the body, and that they are The Absolute (and have been all along.) My heart breaks, but with you, in the clear light of your composure, I'm in awe.


My father passed away in my arms in May 2014. All I wanted for him was to be surrounded by love, and to *know* that, right up until he fell into his deep (and final) sleep. I'd wish you the same, P, but you already have it - more than you can imagine. You know you're free, and that you can be nothing other than that.


What I will wish for you is a little more strength for those days when the body is more burdensome, just to top off what you've already got in such abundance.


Some of us miss you already, P, but your presence is stronger than ever. Enjoy as many days as you can.

Allow me to thank you mr.Seraph.

I'm glad that men like you here... just so we don't give up in this horrible world.

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Posted by starwars
people sucks


you post on an open forum you'll get all type of responses, so dont whine once you read something you don't like, its on you.


she offer advice in her 'bitter' way, you either take it or don't.


at the end of the day she did take time of her day to help and offer advice same thing with rocky, i dont care about their way in doing so. I could see what they're trying to do every time they become 'cruel' but people are too sensitive and can't look past their own lashes to figure that out.

She used to post a lot on the Aries board. Go back and read some 10 year old posts from her. She was delightful. It's day and night.


But some shit she's done recently...especially in a thread about a child being abused and OP was obviously distressed....it was nauseating.


Whatever happened in those 10 years wasn't growth. Maybe DXP did it to her, who knows

its the internet -_-

You act like the internet is some kind of alternate reality.


It's real people behind the screens.


Go to the mbti thread. There are a lot of NF personalities that gravitate toward the Internet. Yes, they are sensitive. You say it like it's a sickness


I recently worked with some middle schoolers and I had them take mbti and a lot of the NF's were sad as fuck. And they had parents at home like Pangel barking at them because they were sensitive.


So I don't see the helpfulness that you see. Poking someone in the chest when they are on the edge is cowardly.

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Posted by Distilled
I'm sorry to hear this.


I know someone who got treated, there are whole groups of people who did with positive results where I live. They just travelled there and bought it and brought it back as medicine. I'm not sure if you've heard of this wherever you live, or if you're interested, but here is a link...



http://www.miaminewtimes.com/news/blue-scorpion-venom-cubas-miracle-drug-6391741

Posted by Sax664



take care, dear p!


sincerley, nem.

Posted by cheekyfaerie
Just don't watch me masturbate.


I don't know what to say beyond that. Thank you sounds like you're already gone. I'm sorry you won't get your one on one before Tuesday, but thank goodness for Google. You've got some time to get acquainted enough to hopefully not be too scary. Regardless of how ready you are though, this whole thing's still scary. Now I'm just rambling, but comfort!... comfort I wish for you most of all.


Give it hell, you ol' bird.

Posted by DonJohn
creeps are arguing with people for pages on why they are justified to wish pain and suffering on someone with cancer.




that is a new low.

Posted by Goateeguru
Dude, you should totally talk sh it to that cancer like you talk sh it to those you've considered weaklings here. I'm surprised no ones done a parody of that.


You should check out the book "self hypnosis for health and self change."


There's a chapter on cancer cells and mental imagery.


There's a lot of research to back up the effectiveness of imagery on cancer. Some patients experienced complete reversal and perfect health which is why certain treatment centers incorporate it into their program.


I think your whole "I'm not afraid of death," "come at me death," stance is cool n all but wouldn't be more inspiring to beat this?!


The mind is capable of doing incredible things! I challenge you to let that be your testimony.

Posted by Infinite8


So, half of you wants to fight for life and the other half wants to just go? How do you feel about taking chemo?

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Posted by starwars

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Posted by GetMisted
After her shit show following Nefer's passing..


I really have no sympathy for her. I hope it's a painful death.

I don't see how she was mean

I don't either.


I even went to look and read the topic,


there was nothing cruel about what she said or did,


it felt to me that she doesn't want nefer to go, because she was such a beautiful soul.


so it's more in denial and that it's all lies.

same.


she pointed that she likes Nefer (RIP) , she even send Nafer' family the money they've asked for


so i dont know how she's cruel only because she thinks Nefer family weren't grateful.


anyway, I'm lowkey glad P doesn't give a fuck and know who she truly is...people can bitch and whine as much as they want

if money was sent to the family from here,


one of the family members should have made an account and posted here and said thank you to everyone. that's the least they could do.


I know how hard it is when one of your family members pass away, and they have no money for the funeral. funeral costs for your loved one is tough and it is very very kind that people of dxp sent money out of their hearts.

Those that give or offer their support (emotional, financial, etc.) with the expectation of positive affirmation in return.. are doing so for the wrong reasons. Selfish reasons.


Like a few others here.. I knew Tracey and her family personally (just as I do with a couple other members). Not just some internet stranger. I offered my support, condolences, and money.. because I knew it was needed.


I've been to many wakes, services, and funerals.. many of which were for people I had never met in my life. I offer what I can give to help. Never once.. did I ask to see an obit, open a casket, or see a death certificate to make sure the death was legit before giving support.

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Posted by DonJohn

Posted by brianafay
People - there's a difference between feeling someone isnt deserving of your empathy and actually wishing for and rejoicing in their pain


Same people speaking of karma

yup. just LOL @ people legit wishing agony on someone with cancer just because they disagreed with their internet posts....

Legit this.


How absurd, insensitive and unevolved are they for telling someone with a cancer that they got a "karma" or go die with agony. That shows a tons more about them...

Posted by P-Angel
...It's not a secret that I don't like people very much, nor this world. ...

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Posted by GetMisted

Posted by lisabethur8

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Posted by lisabethur8

Posted by starwars

Posted by lisabethur8

Posted by starwars

Posted by GetMisted
After her shit show following Nefer's passing..


I really have no sympathy for her. I hope it's a painful death.

I don't see how she was mean

I don't either.


I even went to look and read the topic,


there was nothing cruel about what she said or did,


it felt to me that she doesn't want nefer to go, because she was such a beautiful soul.


so it's more in denial and that it's all lies.

same.


she pointed that she likes Nefer (RIP) , she even send Nafer' family the money they've asked for


so i dont know how she's cruel only because she thinks Nefer family weren't grateful.


anyway, I'm lowkey glad P doesn't give a fuck and know who she truly is...people can bitch and whine as much as they want

if money was sent to the family from here,


one of the family members should have made an account and posted here and said thank you to everyone. that's the least they could do.


I know how hard it is when one of your family members pass away, and they have no money for the funeral. funeral costs for your loved one is tough and it is very very kind that people of dxp sent money out of their hearts.

Those that give or offer their support (emotional, financial, etc.) with the expectation of positive affirmation in return.. are doing so for the wrong reasons. Selfish reasons.


Like a few others here.. I knew Tracey and her family personally (just as I do with a couple other members). Not just some internet stranger. I offered my support, condolences, and money.. because I knew it was needed.


I've been to many wakes, services, and funerals.. many of which were for people I had never met in my life. I offer what I can give to help. Never once.. did I ask to see an obit, open a casket, or see a death certificate to make sure the death was legit before giving support.

no you don't do that, when you go to services, funeral, you just offer without question.


but on the internet, people can say anything. that's why you go out and get proof. Even photos can be manipulated and photoshopped. magazine covers are always manipulated too.


that's why even on an astrology site you go and google and research celebrities to see proof.


you're not really arguing about her asking for proof,


I think it's something DEEPER than that. maybe you want her to suffer painfully because she had done something terrible to you or to your friends....


cause if her just wanting to see proof of an online death obituary, (they can also be private, but have a name, but your address and phone number can also be private)



maybe she wasn't close to Nefer like you were, when you actually knew her in real life.

P's never done anything to me personally.


She (and LIB for that matter) didn't need to make a spectacle by demanding proof and telling others to wait until an obit was handy. The fact was that myself and many others knew that she had passed, and that her family did not have the resources to have a service for her.


Be skeptical is you want.. I don't care. But don't attempt to convince others not to help when help is definitely needed.


And when you decide you're actually going to help.. don't expect a thank you after and criticize the family after they do not offer you one.

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Posted by DonJohn

Posted by brianafay
People - there's a difference between feeling someone isnt deserving of your empathy and actually wishing for and rejoicing in their pain


Same people speaking of karma


?

yup. just LOL @ people legit wishing agony on someone with cancer just because they disagreed with their internet posts.




i mean..... how crazy is that?

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Posted by MagicMona
apricot seeds, watermelon, cherries, and liquorice root. my uncle had stage 4 liver cancer. they did surgery, it came back and started spreading. he stopped taking their meds and opted for healthy alternatives. that was 5 years ago. drs. told him he only had a few months. all the mentioned foods have powerful cancer fighting agents. switch diet. that's the key. chemo is poison.

I tend to agree. Chemo is poison, but it's not my decision. It helps also if you eat a healthy organic diet based largely on plant foods with minimal meat and no cancer cell friendly foods like that for you're whole life and not just when you get diagnosed with a terminal illness. By doing so you create an environment in the body which is hostile to cancer cell reproduction.


Why is a liver transplant not a possibility??

i didn't say it wasn't. but is she strong enough for surgery at this point? can her body handle it? that's a major concern. not of mine, but, yeah.

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Posted by DonJohn

Posted by brianafay
People - there's a difference between feeling someone isnt deserving of your empathy and actually wishing for and rejoicing in their pain


Same people speaking of karma

yup. just LOL @ people legit wishing agony on someone with cancer just because they disagreed with their internet posts....

Legit this.


How absurd, insensitive and unevolved are they for telling someone with a cancer that they got a "karma" or go die with agony. That shows a tons more about them...

I don't know why DJ is speaking for morality. isn't he one of those go-kill-yourself people? or is he afraid we would wish him painful death?


Anyway, I think PA wrote this line for us to feel free to write whatever we want. So no need for self-censorship, I'd say.

Posted by P-Angel
...It's not a secret that I don't like people very much, nor this world. ...

Yo @DonJohn , did you often telling to people here to "go kill yourself"?


And I'm not gonna justify that quote for P-angel since I can see and understand why she said that.

lmao



even if i did it was in the spirit of the frogman









please kill yourselves

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Posted by DonJohn
i am brutally honest with satire.

Posted by P-Angel

My brother (Scorpio) can't wait until I lose my hair ... twisted bastard

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it's very important to remain positive in life. ... ...

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It is also ...

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Posted by -elle-
The only thing I can wish for you....is that you come back to this world as a black man born in the US.


That is all.

you would like her personality as a male then?

No, she's just looking to expand her dating pool ??

Go fuck yourself.

You first. What's ironic about you telling P-Angel you hope she comes back as a black guy in a thread that she reveals she has cancer, is that every time there's a race thread..you say the most ignorant, cringe worthy things such as the dismissive cliche 'I don't see color.' Keep it trashy..I mean..classy.

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Posted by MyStarsShine
Just wanted to mention to all the people here that wish others a painful death, that bitterness will eventually turn in on you. This is how my sister was, hated people and always looked at the negative and she confessed to me that it was killing her.


Try being kind and positive and see where it takes you......if you dare?

Posted by tamara
I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright no matter how grey the day may appear.


I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun even more.


I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive and everlasting.


I wish you enough pain so that even the smallest of joys in life may appear bigger.


I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting.


I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you possess.


I wish you enough hellos to get you through the final good-bye.

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Posted by MyStarsShine
Just wanted to mention to all the people here that wish others a painful death, that bitterness will eventually turn in on you. This is how my sister was, hated people and always looked at the negative and she confessed to me that it was killing her.


Try being kind and positive and see where it takes you......if you dare?

the scorpio moon sister?



we also have an aunty who has scorpio moon and she went through 3 cancer remissions, they keep coming back.

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