During this Pandemic me and my Taurus been spending a lot more time together. Im at his house 6 or 7 days out the week. I knew him since 6th grade. We been seeing each other since july 2019. He made me his girl back in September but claim hes not committed to me in December after we broke up and got back together. I ask him when will we get serious and be committed because I know he talks to other girls.i went through his phone back in march and then he did it back to me. I know I let my insecurities get the best of me. Please no judgements. He didnt want to lose me so he said he will commit. The next morning I laughed at a guy meme on Instagram it's a guy I use to be involved with. Fwb to be exact no feelings for this person whatsoever. He went thru my phone when I was sleeping when he came home from work. Then he said now I'm not committing because you telling to stop talking to females but your talking to a guy u bang. I get it y hes upset but it was just a simple laughing emoji. And I guess he read some conversations of the guy being sexual towards me but I shut him down. He read conversations of the times we were broken up. So fast forward to the morning when he seen the laughing emoji It havent even been 24hrs and he already looking for something. I have never seen any man while being with him. Even during the times we broke up I never went to see anyone the most I did was be friendly. I been very patient with him and for him to tell me again recently he'll never commit no matter what broke my heart. I dont know if he had said out of anger or meant it. I been crying all week. He came into the relationship with trust issues. I trusted him until I seen some shit that he wouldn't be okay with me doing. So that's y I mentioned commitment to him and no we are not talking right now because I told him I am done. We haven't spoke in 4 days and he havent reach out to me. He is selfish and I called him a narcissist. And I left voice messages cussing him out and telling him about himself. I been good to him. I been there for him at his lowest. I never crossed boundaries. I been friendly but never sexual with anyone. And plus he kept telling me we weren't serious. Ever since I broke up with him he havent been on social media or anything. Idk how he is feeling if care or what. If he sad maybe. I do miss him and wish we can just start over because we never set any boundaries. We been enjoying our time together and its been really nice. He cooks for me, super affectionate and the sex is amazing. It's just the non commit thing been bothering me. Its been a yr now like when will he get it through his head that I'm worth it. It's like he's afraid. I know you guys probably going to tell me to move on. I just might but something deep inside is hoping he gets it and understand. I'm virgo sun, cancer moon and hes a taurus with pisces moon. He also has some trauma that I feel he hasn't heal from. His mom left as a kid and he been in foster care. His past exs cheated on him and family betrayed him and he has abandonment issues as well is why I think he so messed up. I have a soft spot for him because I would of left a long time ago but if he doesnt commit I am done and probably best to keep it platonic. Its been a yr. I love him so much and accepted him. No one understands him like I do. I know he probably just in thoughts being stubborn right now. What is a girl to do? I need advice. Has anyone dealt with a taurus or is a taurus?
