Pisces update#3: We went on a trip together... now how do I prepare for telling her Im in love?...

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My love for her is so strong it makes me think of death... How Ironic we went to go see Edgar Allen Poe together.....


We drove for a day Trip yesterday to Baltimore. Just me and her. Were together from 3:30pm until about 3:30am by the time we got back. It was the easiest drive up ever. The entire ride we talked and laughed. It was nothing less than exciting. I planned the day out for us since she'd never been to baltimore. And we covered a lot of ground together and were able to just enjoy each other's company. She really loved my plan.

We went down as "friends". Split the tolls. and she purchased my dinner. Just throwing some legistics out there.

we visited Edgar Allen Poe's grave while there... I noticed hickeys on her back and just pointed them out like "oo la la chicka". She lifted her dress to expose to me the rest up and down her back. Than I took a picture of her in the grave yard with her dress almost off... than we smoked some weed. And laid in the grass together in the graveyard of westminster hall cemetery.

We went to all these awesome places. But I wont go in to detail on that but to say that I made her laugh. A lot. She was having a lot of fun



I felt very dominant around her. I was leading her. It felt right. We just worked so well together.

We went out to dinner...

HERE IS WHERE IT GOT ROUGH FOR ME....

Those eyes... we made eye contact a few times but I tried to avoid it at all costs. Because it is always so intense. Before dinner we were at a book store/coffee shop. and sat down to read some zenes we just got. She tried some of my aloe water. She had never tried it before.. and I explained how good it was for your skin. She than touched my face with her one hand as she looked in my eyes and said "so I can drink it and my face will be soft and glowing like yours?"

I cracked a joke of course.. something along the lines of "glowing from a lot of fucking whisky and little sleep you mean?" She laughed... the genuine laugh.. not the pisces fake laugh. I know the difference.

..At dinner we sat next to each other... my arms around her to keep her warm in the cold restaraunt... And a few looks back from her. I couldn't look her in the eye for too long. But when I spoke to her.. told her stories.. and made eye contact. She almost looked as if in awe of me....

Than we ended our night at the harbor... we sat down somewhere alone.. secluded.

She started talking about love....

She told me about how she was in love with two people in her life. one being the girl she met when she met me...And how short lived it was but it was love nonetheless... I could feel my self start to shut down (classic cancer coping method)...

I asked her how she knew she was in love with her ex...And she expressed to me that she felt the words her ex spoke in her body. That when her ex would tell her how she felt it resonated with my pisces... it made me think.. "was I not vulnerable enough? Is that my issue?" It made me question a lot about what would happen...

What would happen If I look'd her in the eye and simply say...

"When I look at you.. I get that same feeling you described when you say you were in love. Like I can feel you in my chest. When we are together. Its like our energies are one. And I feel like our souls belong. When I make eye contact with you. Its ALWAYS intense. Thats why I have been trying to avoid it... because that is when I feel most in love...I try to be friends... and it feels successful.. until days like this. where every moment with you I just get lost. In the very best way. Everytime we hold gaze... its like a gravitational pull wants us to come together...so I could kiss your magnificent lips. touch your soft skin..kiss your neck..pull you close to me. I FUCKING LOVE YOU and even on my worst days hearing from you makes it all that makes me smile.

And what makes me smile the most is when I make YOU smile. And laugh"...

BUT I did open up to her as well... just not about my feelings toward her...But toward falling in love in general. And what a difficult time Im having with emotional vulnerability. ect. We were both extremely exhausted at this point. So the conversation just kinda died down on the walk back to the car before our drive home... She slept a lot of the way which I was fine with because I was in my feels.

I didnt eat much so I got a little sick by the time we got to her place. I came in for 15 minutes just to get my shit together and left.

She lifted up her dog that I adore. And gave me a hug with him. She said "give him a kiss"As I was saying goodbye to them both.

And I kissed him. Than gave her a kiss on the cheek.... and walked out.

I was kind of glad she just thought I was sick when leaving... because in reality there were 2 reasons my face looked like I wanted to vomit. And at the moment I didn't want her to know it was because I was in love..I just wanted her to remember our great day together... I didn't want to complicate..

I had SO MANY opportunities to kiss her... and I think she wanted to kiss me a few times... but I had already set a boundary. I couldn't kiss her.. not after telling her if we were friends she couldn't kiss me. But we had a few moments...eye contact... a few times walking around with her arms around my waist....

It was just such a perfect day... Im just having such a hard time being sure about telling her how I feel...

I have this idea brewing in my head. About the next time I see her... just showing her "OUR SAGA" here on dxp. I get tongue tied a lot. but only when it comes to this level of vulnerability.Im so used to writing it on paper and in my music instead. I actually told her this last night. And what I wrote here to you guys is most genuine explanation as to how I feel. I just think it would give some clarity... Is this a bad idea?..

Should I show her all my cards? And show her DXP?.. everything Iv written about her..

Next time should I just grab her and kiss her instead?

We have so many moments.

And Piss poor preparation equals piss poor performance...

how should I prepare to tell her im in love?

I want to tell her in person....

I don't want to lose her forever... But I need to tell her how I feel..

Posted by WaterDevil
My love for her is so strong it makes me think of death... How Ironic we went to go see Edgar Allen Poe together.....


We drove for a day Trip yesterday to Baltimore. Just me and her. Were together from 3:30pm until about 3:30am by the time we got back. It was the easiest drive up ever. The entire ride we talked and laughed. It was nothing less than exciting. I planned the day out for us since she'd never been to baltimore. And we covered a lot of ground together and were able to just enjoy each other's company. She really loved my plan.

We went down as "friends". Split the tolls. and she purchased my dinner. Just throwing some legistics out there.

we visited Edgar Allen Poe's grave while there... I noticed hickeys on her back and just pointed them out like "oo la la chicka". She lifted her dress to expose to me the rest up and down her back. Than I took a picture of her in the grave yard with her dress almost off... than we smoked some weed. And laid in the grass together in the graveyard of westminster hall cemetery.

We went to all these awesome places. But I wont go in to detail on that but to say that I made her laugh. A lot. She was having a lot of fun



I felt very dominant around her. I was leading her. It felt right. We just worked so well together.

We went out to dinner...

HERE IS WHERE IT GOT ROUGH FOR ME....

Those eyes... we made eye contact a few times but I tried to avoid it at all costs. Because it is always so intense. Before dinner we were at a book store/coffee shop. and sat down to read some zenes we just got. She tried some of my aloe water. She had never tried it before.. and I explained how good it was for your skin. She than touched my face with her one hand as she looked in my eyes and said "so I can drink it and my face will be soft and glowing like yours?"

I cracked a joke of course.. something along the lines of "glowing from a lot of fucking whisky and little sleep you mean?" She laughed... the genuine laugh.. not the pisces fake laugh. I know the difference.

..At dinner we sat next to each other... my arms around her to keep her warm in the cold restaraunt... And a few looks back from her. I couldn't look her in the eye for too long. But when I spoke to her.. told her stories.. and made eye contact. She almost looked as if in awe of me....

Than we ended our night at the harbor... we sat down somewhere alone.. secluded.

She started talking about love....

She told me about how she was in love with two people in her life. one being the girl she met when she met me...And how short lived it was but it was love nonetheless... I could feel my self start to shut down (classic cancer coping method)...

I asked her how she knew she was in love with her ex...And she expressed to me that she felt the words her ex spoke in her body. That when her ex would tell her how she felt it resonated with my pisces... it made me think.. "was I not vulnerable enough? Is that my issue?" It made me question a lot about what would happen...

What would happen If I look'd her in the eye and simply say...

"When I look at you.. I get that same feeling you described when you say you were in love. Like I can feel you in my chest. When we are together. Its like our energies are one. And I feel like our souls belong. When I make eye contact with you. Its ALWAYS intense. Thats why I have been trying to avoid it... because that is when I feel most in love...I try to be friends... and it feels successful.. until days like this. where every moment with you I just get lost. In the very best way. Everytime we hold gaze... its like a gravitational pull wants us to come together...so I could kiss your magnificent lips. touch your soft skin..kiss your neck..pull you close to me. I FUCKING LOVE YOU and even on my worst days hearing from you makes it all that makes me smile.

And what makes me smile the most is when I make YOU smile. And laugh"...

BUT I did open up to her as well... just not about my feelings toward her...But toward falling in love in general. And what a difficult time Im having with emotional vulnerability. ect. We were both extremely exhausted at this point. So the conversation just kinda died down on the walk back to the car before our drive home... She slept a lot of the way which I was fine with because I was in my feels.

I didnt eat much so I got a little sick by the time we got to her place. I came in for 15 minutes just to get my shit together and left.

She lifted up her dog that I adore. And gave me a hug with him. She said "give him a kiss"As I was saying goodbye to them both.

And I kissed him. Than gave her a kiss on the cheek.... and walked out.

I was kind of glad she just thought I was sick when leaving... because in reality there were 2 reasons my face looked like I wanted to vomit. And at the moment I didn't want her to know it was because I was in love..I just wanted her to remember our great day together... I didn't want to complicate..

I had SO MANY opportunities to kiss her... and I think she wanted to kiss me a few times... but I had already set a boundary. I couldn't kiss her.. not after telling her if we were friends she couldn't kiss me. But we had a few moments...eye contact... a few times walking around with her arms around my waist....

It was just such a perfect day... Im just having such a hard time being sure about telling her how I feel...

I have this idea brewing in my head. About the next time I see her... just showing her "OUR SAGA" here on dxp. I get tongue tied a lot. but only when it comes to this level of vulnerability.Im so used to writing it on paper and in my music instead. I actually told her this last night. And what I wrote here to you guys is most genuine explanation as to how I feel. I just think it would give some clarity... Is this a bad idea?..

Should I show her all my cards? And show her DXP?.. everything Iv written about her..

Next time should I just grab her and kiss her instead?

We have so many moments.

And Piss poor preparation equals piss poor performance...

how should I prepare to tell her im in love?

I want to tell her in person....

I don't want to lose her forever... But I need to tell her how I feel..

@adreamawakening
I wouldn't show her this until she say I love you back.

For me the perfect way to say that you are in love with me is in one of this intense moments, my partner holding my face with both hands, looking me in the eyes, sweet kiss and a simple I love you. Absolutely perfect in my book!
Posted by WaterDevil
Posted by WaterDevil
My love for her is so strong it makes me think of death... How Ironic we went to go see Edgar Allen Poe together.....


We drove for a day Trip yesterday to Baltimore. Just me and her. Were together from 3:30pm until about 3:30am by the time we got back. It was the easiest drive up ever. The entire ride we talked and laughed. It was nothing less than exciting. I planned the day out for us since she'd never been to baltimore. And we covered a lot of ground together and were able to just enjoy each other's company. She really loved my plan.

We went down as "friends". Split the tolls. and she purchased my dinner. Just throwing some legistics out there.

we visited Edgar Allen Poe's grave while there... I noticed hickeys on her back and just pointed them out like "oo la la chicka". She lifted her dress to expose to me the rest up and down her back. Than I took a picture of her in the grave yard with her dress almost off... than we smoked some weed. And laid in the grass together in the graveyard of westminster hall cemetery.

We went to all these awesome places. But I wont go in to detail on that but to say that I made her laugh. A lot. She was having a lot of fun



I felt very dominant around her. I was leading her. It felt right. We just worked so well together.

We went out to dinner...

HERE IS WHERE IT GOT ROUGH FOR ME....

Those eyes... we made eye contact a few times but I tried to avoid it at all costs. Because it is always so intense. Before dinner we were at a book store/coffee shop. and sat down to read some zenes we just got. She tried some of my aloe water. She had never tried it before.. and I explained how good it was for your skin. She than touched my face with her one hand as she looked in my eyes and said "so I can drink it and my face will be soft and glowing like yours?"

I cracked a joke of course.. something along the lines of "glowing from a lot of fucking whisky and little sleep you mean?" She laughed... the genuine laugh.. not the pisces fake laugh. I know the difference.

..At dinner we sat next to each other... my arms around her to keep her warm in the cold restaraunt... And a few looks back from her. I couldn't look her in the eye for too long. But when I spoke to her.. told her stories.. and made eye contact. She almost looked as if in awe of me....

Than we ended our night at the harbor... we sat down somewhere alone.. secluded.

She started talking about love....

She told me about how she was in love with two people in her life. one being the girl she met when she met me...And how short lived it was but it was love nonetheless... I could feel my self start to shut down (classic cancer coping method)...

I asked her how she knew she was in love with her ex...And she expressed to me that she felt the words her ex spoke in her body. That when her ex would tell her how she felt it resonated with my pisces... it made me think.. "was I not vulnerable enough? Is that my issue?" It made me question a lot about what would happen...

What would happen If I look'd her in the eye and simply say...

"When I look at you.. I get that same feeling you described when you say you were in love. Like I can feel you in my chest. When we are together. Its like our energies are one. And I feel like our souls belong. When I make eye contact with you. Its ALWAYS intense. Thats why I have been trying to avoid it... because that is when I feel most in love...I try to be friends... and it feels successful.. until days like this. where every moment with you I just get lost. In the very best way. Everytime we hold gaze... its like a gravitational pull wants us to come together...so I could kiss your magnificent lips. touch your soft skin..kiss your neck..pull you close to me. I FUCKING LOVE YOU and even on my worst days hearing from you makes it all that makes me smile.

And what makes me smile the most is when I make YOU smile. And laugh"...

BUT I did open up to her as well... just not about my feelings toward her...But toward falling in love in general. And what a difficult time Im having with emotional vulnerability. ect. We were both extremely exhausted at this point. So the conversation just kinda died down on the walk back to the car before our drive home... She slept a lot of the way which I was fine with because I was in my feels.

I didnt eat much so I got a little sick by the time we got to her place. I came in for 15 minutes just to get my shit together and left.

She lifted up her dog that I adore. And gave me a hug with him. She said "give him a kiss"As I was saying goodbye to them both.

And I kissed him. Than gave her a kiss on the cheek.... and walked out.

I was kind of glad she just thought I was sick when leaving... because in reality there were 2 reasons my face looked like I wanted to vomit. And at the moment I didn't want her to know it was because I was in love..I just wanted her to remember our great day together... I didn't want to complicate..

I had SO MANY opportunities to kiss her... and I think she wanted to kiss me a few times... but I had already set a boundary. I couldn't kiss her.. not after telling her if we were friends she couldn't kiss me. But we had a few moments...eye contact... a few times walking around with her arms around my waist....

It was just such a perfect day... Im just having such a hard time being sure about telling her how I feel...

I have this idea brewing in my head. About the next time I see her... just showing her "OUR SAGA" here on dxp. I get tongue tied a lot. but only when it comes to this level of vulnerability.Im so used to writing it on paper and in my music instead. I actually told her this last night. And what I wrote here to you guys is most genuine explanation as to how I feel. I just think it would give some clarity... Is this a bad idea?..

Should I show her all my cards? And show her DXP?.. everything Iv written about her..

Next time should I just grab her and kiss her instead?

We have so many moments.

And Piss poor preparation equals piss poor performance...

how should I prepare to tell her im in love?

I want to tell her in person....

I don't want to lose her forever... But I need to tell her how I feel..

@adreamawakening
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lol you spelled my name wrong

there's a fake Pisces laugh?

news to me!
By the way i think that your idea is a terrible idea.

your hormones are making you self-sabotage.

Don't do it bro!!!
I care about you and want you to succeed with this girl

learn from my past mistakes

Don't let this be your anthem..as good as it is..

..



Jeremy can we talk a minute?

I've got some things that I need to

Get off of my chest

I know that we have had a few

And it's far too late

But if I wait I might never tell you

Can we find somewhere quiet?

Let's go outside

I've got some smokes if you've got a light

It's just that sometimes when I'm by your side

It feels so right

It feels like nothing could go wrong

Does it ever

Feel like that to you?

Does it ever

Feel like that to you?

Oh I don't know what I mean

It sounded wrong and I'm just tired

Not being weird

I just mean that you're a good friend

It's hard to explain

Just forget I said anything

Get over yourself

I'm not in love with you

It just came out all wrong

Yeah

Tell the guys and laugh it up

Why am I even surprised?

That it never

Feels like that to you

That it never

Feels like that to you

I guess it never

Feels like that to you

I guess it never

Feels like that to you
Posted by Adreamuponwaking
Posted by WaterDevil
Posted by WaterDevil
My love for her is so strong it makes me think of death... How Ironic we went to go see Edgar Allen Poe together.....


We drove for a day Trip yesterday to Baltimore. Just me and her. Were together from 3:30pm until about 3:30am by the time we got back. It was the easiest drive up ever. The entire ride we talked and laughed. It was nothing less than exciting. I planned the day out for us since she'd never been to baltimore. And we covered a lot of ground together and were able to just enjoy each other's company. She really loved my plan.

We went down as "friends". Split the tolls. and she purchased my dinner. Just throwing some legistics out there.

we visited Edgar Allen Poe's grave while there... I noticed hickeys on her back and just pointed them out like "oo la la chicka". She lifted her dress to expose to me the rest up and down her back. Than I took a picture of her in the grave yard with her dress almost off... than we smoked some weed. And laid in the grass together in the graveyard of westminster hall cemetery.

We went to all these awesome places. But I wont go in to detail on that but to say that I made her laugh. A lot. She was having a lot of fun



I felt very dominant around her. I was leading her. It felt right. We just worked so well together.

We went out to dinner...

HERE IS WHERE IT GOT ROUGH FOR ME....

Those eyes... we made eye contact a few times but I tried to avoid it at all costs. Because it is always so intense. Before dinner we were at a book store/coffee shop. and sat down to read some zenes we just got. She tried some of my aloe water. She had never tried it before.. and I explained how good it was for your skin. She than touched my face with her one hand as she looked in my eyes and said "so I can drink it and my face will be soft and glowing like yours?"

I cracked a joke of course.. something along the lines of "glowing from a lot of fucking whisky and little sleep you mean?" She laughed... the genuine laugh.. not the pisces fake laugh. I know the difference.

..At dinner we sat next to each other... my arms around her to keep her warm in the cold restaraunt... And a few looks back from her. I couldn't look her in the eye for too long. But when I spoke to her.. told her stories.. and made eye contact. She almost looked as if in awe of me....

Than we ended our night at the harbor... we sat down somewhere alone.. secluded.

She started talking about love....

She told me about how she was in love with two people in her life. one being the girl she met when she met me...And how short lived it was but it was love nonetheless... I could feel my self start to shut down (classic cancer coping method)...

I asked her how she knew she was in love with her ex...And she expressed to me that she felt the words her ex spoke in her body. That when her ex would tell her how she felt it resonated with my pisces... it made me think.. "was I not vulnerable enough? Is that my issue?" It made me question a lot about what would happen...

What would happen If I look'd her in the eye and simply say...

"When I look at you.. I get that same feeling you described when you say you were in love. Like I can feel you in my chest. When we are together. Its like our energies are one. And I feel like our souls belong. When I make eye contact with you. Its ALWAYS intense. Thats why I have been trying to avoid it... because that is when I feel most in love...I try to be friends... and it feels successful.. until days like this. where every moment with you I just get lost. In the very best way. Everytime we hold gaze... its like a gravitational pull wants us to come together...so I could kiss your magnificent lips. touch your soft skin..kiss your neck..pull you close to me. I FUCKING LOVE YOU and even on my worst days hearing from you makes it all that makes me smile.

And what makes me smile the most is when I make YOU smile. And laugh"...

BUT I did open up to her as well... just not about my feelings toward her...But toward falling in love in general. And what a difficult time Im having with emotional vulnerability. ect. We were both extremely exhausted at this point. So the conversation just kinda died down on the walk back to the car before our drive home... She slept a lot of the way which I was fine with because I was in my feels.

I didnt eat much so I got a little sick by the time we got to her place. I came in for 15 minutes just to get my shit together and left.

She lifted up her dog that I adore. And gave me a hug with him. She said "give him a kiss"As I was saying goodbye to them both.

And I kissed him. Than gave her a kiss on the cheek.... and walked out.

I was kind of glad she just thought I was sick when leaving... because in reality there were 2 reasons my face looked like I wanted to vomit. And at the moment I didn't want her to know it was because I was in love..I just wanted her to remember our great day together... I didn't want to complicate..

I had SO MANY opportunities to kiss her... and I think she wanted to kiss me a few times... but I had already set a boundary. I couldn't kiss her.. not after telling her if we were friends she couldn't kiss me. But we had a few moments...eye contact... a few times walking around with her arms around my waist....

It was just such a perfect day... Im just having such a hard time being sure about telling her how I feel...

I have this idea brewing in my head. About the next time I see her... just showing her "OUR SAGA" here on dxp. I get tongue tied a lot. but only when it comes to this level of vulnerability.Im so used to writing it on paper and in my music instead. I actually told her this last night. And what I wrote here to you guys is most genuine explanation as to how I feel. I just think it would give some clarity... Is this a bad idea?..

Should I show her all my cards? And show her DXP?.. everything Iv written about her..

Next time should I just grab her and kiss her instead?

We have so many moments.

And Piss poor preparation equals piss poor performance...

how should I prepare to tell her im in love?

I want to tell her in person....

I don't want to lose her forever... But I need to tell her how I feel..

@adreamawakening
lol you spelled my name wrong

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whoops haha
Posted by Adreamuponwaking
there's a fake Pisces laugh?

news to me!
yes my mom (pisces) and her sister (pisces) both have a fake laugh lol
Posted by Adreamuponwaking
By the way i think that your idea is a terrible idea.

your hormones are making you self-sabotage.

Don't do it bro!!!
Thank you. I love this place. you guys can knock some sense in to me when Im being such a fucking girl LOL
Posted by WaterDevil
Posted by Adreamuponwaking
there's a fake Pisces laugh?

news to me!
yes my mom (pisces) and her sister (pisces) both have a fake laugh lol
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really do they have aries or cap placements?

all of my laughs are real.....

some are just more intense.

my mother who is also a pisces is the same.



Posted by WaterDevil
Posted by Adreamuponwaking
By the way i think that your idea is a terrible idea.

your hormones are making you self-sabotage.

Don't do it bro!!!
Thank you. I love this place. you guys can knock some sense in to me when Im being such a fucking girl LOL
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you're not being a girl

you're acting more like a teenage boy who is about to prematurely ejaculate his first

time....

leaving the object of your affection

flattered at first but mostly pissed, annoyed and slightly disgusted with you and what just happened lol

Posted by Adreamuponwaking
By the way i think that your idea is a terrible idea.

your hormones are making you self-sabotage.

Don't do it bro!!!
So do you think I should tell her I love her... ? or do what @urbane101 told me which is disappear for 4 weeks...? and wait... Im about to postpone the music video because of this. it's too much.
Posted by Adreamuponwaking
Posted by WaterDevil
Posted by Adreamuponwaking
By the way i think that your idea is a terrible idea.

your hormones are making you self-sabotage.

Don't do it bro!!!
Thank you. I love this place. you guys can knock some sense in to me when Im being such a fucking girl LOL


you're not being a girl

you're acting more like a teenage boy who is about to prematurely ejaculate his first

time....

leaving the object of your affection

flattered at first but mostly pissed, annoyed and slightly disgusted with you and what just happened lol

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hu?? did I offend you?

Posted by lionspark
do you want to ruin your friendship
I feel like im deceiving her now though. How am I being a real friend if these feelings keep creeping up and I say nothing?
Posted by Adreamuponwaking
Posted by WaterDevil
Posted by Adreamuponwaking
there's a fake Pisces laugh?

news to me!
yes my mom (pisces) and her sister (pisces) both have a fake laugh lol
really do they have aries or cap placements?

all of my laughs are real.....

some are just more intense.

my mother who is also a pisces is the same.



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not sure the placements

Posted by WaterDevil
Posted by Adreamuponwaking
By the way i think that your idea is a terrible idea.

your hormones are making you self-sabotage.

Don't do it bro!!!
So do you think I should tell her I love her... ? or do what @urbane101 told me which is disappear for 4 weeks...? and wait... Im about to postpone the music video because of this. it's too much.
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Disappear!!

lol did you see my post with the song lyrics?

that's what i meant don't be like the guy in the song who gets drunk at a party and decides to tell his friend the he loves him

it will end badly.

she won't make you feel bad but will start to use you even more for attention

and will never reciprocate

you'll go insane.



Posted by WaterDevil
Posted by Adreamuponwaking
Posted by WaterDevil
Posted by Adreamuponwaking
By the way i think that your idea is a terrible idea.

your hormones are making you self-sabotage.

Don't do it bro!!!
Thank you. I love this place. you guys can knock some sense in to me when Im being such a fucking girl LOL


you're not being a girl

you're acting more like a teenage boy who is about to prematurely ejaculate his first

time....

leaving the object of your affection

flattered at first but mostly pissed, annoyed and slightly disgusted with you and what just happened lol

hu?? did I offend you?

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You said "your hormones making you self sabotage".. I was just backing what you said in my own words.. wasn't trying to offend anyone... I was agreeing with you..

Posted by WaterDevil
Posted by Adreamuponwaking
Posted by WaterDevil
Posted by Adreamuponwaking
By the way i think that your idea is a terrible idea.

your hormones are making you self-sabotage.

Don't do it bro!!!
Thank you. I love this place. you guys can knock some sense in to me when Im being such a fucking girl LOL


you're not being a girl

you're acting more like a teenage boy who is about to prematurely ejaculate his first

time....

leaving the object of your affection

flattered at first but mostly pissed, annoyed and slightly disgusted with you and what just happened lol

hu?? did I offend you?

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Not at all

you remind me of myself.

i genuinely think a teenage boy is a better analogy


i have so much compassion for them now haha

hormones are the worst

Posted by WaterDevil
Posted by lionspark
do you want to ruin your friendship
I feel like im deceiving her now though. How am I being a real friend if these feelings keep creeping up and I say nothing?
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i thought the same thing

telling her won't make your friendship better

especially because she probably already knows

she maybe in active denial though

Pisces women always know

God i wish I could time travel ..

so I could take it all back

i'd still have a friend and a potential hook up buddy
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Posted by Adreamuponwaking
By the way i think that your idea is a terrible idea.

your hormones are making you self-sabotage.

Don't do it bro!!!
So do you think I should tell her I love her... ? or do what @urbane101 told me which is disappear for 4 weeks...? and wait... Im about to postpone the music video because of this. it's too much.


Disappear!!

lol did you see my post with the song lyrics?

that's what i meant don't be like the guy in the song who gets drunk at a party and decides to tell his friend the he loves him

it will end badly.

she won't make you feel bad but will start to use you even more for attention

and will never reciprocate

you'll go insane.



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Than iv made a decision. You heard it hear first. Im disappearing. I texted her last night when I got home safe. simply sent her a thumbs up... followed by "Sorry about that. I was exhausted" (I had come in to her house almost threw up from the ride back so that's what I was referring to) "I had a great time with you---. Goodnight." I left it at that. She messaged me right back 8am thanking me back. Saying she hoped I got some rest. I didn't respond. But She did post snaps on me on her snap story yesterday which she'd NEVER done. And she posted some pictures of our trip on IG this morning. She obviously had a good time. But I set my self up perfectly to disappear this time. I just need to stay strong.
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Posted by Adreamuponwaking
Posted by WaterDevil
Posted by Adreamuponwaking
By the way i think that your idea is a terrible idea.

your hormones are making you self-sabotage.

Don't do it bro!!!
So do you think I should tell her I love her... ? or do what @urbane101 told me which is disappear for 4 weeks...? and wait... Im about to postpone the music video because of this. it's too much.


Disappear!!

lol did you see my post with the song lyrics?

that's what i meant don't be like the guy in the song who gets drunk at a party and decides to tell his friend the he loves him

it will end badly.

she won't make you feel bad but will start to use you even more for attention

and will never reciprocate

you'll go insane.



Than iv made a decision. You heard it hear first. Im disappearing. I texted her last night when I got home safe. simply sent her a thumbs up... followed by "Sorry about that. I was exhausted" (I had come in to her house almost threw up from the ride back so that's what I was referring to) "I had a great time with you---. Goodnight." I left it at that. She messaged me right back 8am thanking me back. Saying she hoped I got some rest. I didn't respond. But She did post snaps on me on her snap story yesterday which she'd NEVER done. And she posted some pictures of our trip on IG this morning. She obviously had a good time. But I set my self up perfectly to disappear this time. I just need to stay strong.
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yeah focus on other girls

don't exactly ghost her

but get really busy

become aloof.....when you interact with her be kind

but put up your wall

when you start to move on and most likely just about the time you will

that's when she'll try to get with you

it's super annoying and sadly true

You went as friends. You're not even dating. Ask her on a date before you say I love you.
Posted by pinkbird03
You went as friends. You're not even dating. Ask her on a date before you say I love you.
they've already dated and the Pisces didn't want to continue

but still, wants to be friends and most likely hook up from time to time

the Pisces is basically still attracted and likes the attention

but is not emotionally invested

where as op caught the sickness and by sickness i mean love
Posted by pinkbird03
You went as friends. You're not even dating. Ask her on a date before you say I love you.
We've dated before. Twice. There is a backstory.
Posted by WaterDevil
Posted by pinkbird03
You went as friends. You're not even dating. Ask her on a date before you say I love you.
We've dated before. Twice. There is a backstory.
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So you dated twice, then became friends?
Posted by WaterDevil
Posted by pinkbird03
You went as friends. You're not even dating. Ask her on a date before you say I love you.
We've dated before. Twice. There is a backstory.
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There were two attempts at a relationship?

i didn't know this

when was the second go around?

Posted by Adreamuponwaking
Posted by WaterDevil
Posted by pinkbird03
You went as friends. You're not even dating. Ask her on a date before you say I love you.
We've dated before. Twice. There is a backstory.
There were two attempts at a relationship?

i didn't know this

when was the second go around?

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2nd was most recent. She came back into my life 10 months after I met her. I originally met her exactly a year ago two days after my birthday. So july 24th of last year. We dated briefly. She met her ex. And said "she didn't feel it anymore"... Than she entered my life again in march after her birthday.. initially with the purpose of friendship. But we started hooking up again almost instantly (minus the sex this time because I was guarded the 2nd time around).. so I guess you an barely call it dating. I told her my intentions when shit started hitting the fan again and explained "if you want me.. great.If not. Than lets be friends and you cannot kiss me anymore...) Than I asked her to be in my music video.. than she came over for the first time (as a friend) to work on the video one and one... and it was intense to say the least. Than we went to baltimore together. Second "friend" outing. It took me baltimore to realize I can't really do this close friend thing with her at all...

Posted by pinkbird03
Posted by WaterDevil
Posted by pinkbird03
You went as friends. You're not even dating. Ask her on a date before you say I love you.
We've dated before. Twice. There is a backstory.
So you dated twice, then became friends?
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yes
Posted by WaterDevil
Posted by Adreamuponwaking
Posted by WaterDevil
Posted by pinkbird03
You went as friends. You're not even dating. Ask her on a date before you say I love you.
We've dated before. Twice. There is a backstory.
There were two attempts at a relationship?

i didn't know this

when was the second go around?

2nd was most recent. She came back into my life 10 months after I met her. I originally met her exactly a year ago two days after my birthday. So july 24th of last year. We dated briefly. She met her ex. And said "she didn't feel it anymore"... Than she entered my life again in march after her birthday.. initially with the purpose of friendship. But we started hooking up again almost instantly (minus the sex this time because I was guarded the 2nd time around).. so I guess you an barely call it dating. I told her my intentions when shit started hitting the fan again and explained "if you want me.. great.If not. Than lets be friends and you cannot kiss me anymore...) Than I asked her to be in my music video.. than she came over for the first time (as a friend) to work on the video one and one... and it was intense to say the least. Than we went to baltimore together. Second "friend" outing. It took me baltimore to realize I can't really do this close friend thing with her at all...

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ooo...this is worse than i thought

she likes chasing you.

definitely, do not tell her

she's most likely still interested in hooking up with you because of your guard

the minute you tell her is the minute she'll start to taking you for granted and will lose interest entirely

i honestly don't think you should pursue anything with her ever....even if she comes to you and tells you how she messed up..which will definitely happen the more you detach yourself

only when you move on can you truly have a friendship with her and then if you want you tell her about the feelings you used to have.

you've got to practice self-care and self-love

she's not a bad person..just confused...confused Pisces hurt people unintentionally

because they don't know themselves or what they are doing



Posted by lionspark
Posted by WaterDevil
Posted by lionspark
do you want to ruin your friendship
I feel like im deceiving her now though. How am I being a real friend if these feelings keep creeping up and I say nothing?
you went outside as friends, not as a date. seems like she just wants to stay friends. you're torturing yourself because you already knew the outcome

being a friend means supporting her despite it all

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You are pointing out the obvious.. So i think you missed the point.. I understand very well where I stand with her..and where we left it off.. problem is my feelings keep growing regardless.
man i wish i could give myself this advice in the past

about 7 months ago i went on dxp like you

people told me to confess my feelings

and they were wrong lol

i blame myself though ultimately it was my choice

and i wanted to do it differently this time..so that i could get different results

and i did

i lost a friend and took a major blow to my self esteem

the other two pisces my ex and my best friend worked out way better

i didn't tell them about my feelings until over a year and half of sustained friendship and deep interaction

still friends with my ex..who comes on to me every time we hang out even though she's married with a kid

and

my ex best friend finally ended our friendship after a 10 yr run..no regrets

she changed a lot..funny though she was still trying to hook up with me even in the end

i had got over her like 8 years ago though

go me! ( for not taking the bait)
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Posted by WaterDevil
Posted by Adreamuponwaking
Posted by WaterDevil
Posted by pinkbird03
You went as friends. You're not even dating. Ask her on a date before you say I love you.
We've dated before. Twice. There is a backstory.
There were two attempts at a relationship?

i didn't know this

when was the second go around?

2nd was most recent. She came back into my life 10 months after I met her. I originally met her exactly a year ago two days after my birthday. So july 24th of last year. We dated briefly. She met her ex. And said "she didn't feel it anymore"... Than she entered my life again in march after her birthday.. initially with the purpose of friendship. But we started hooking up again almost instantly (minus the sex this time because I was guarded the 2nd time around).. so I guess you an barely call it dating. I told her my intentions when shit started hitting the fan again and explained "if you want me.. great.If not. Than lets be friends and you cannot kiss me anymore...) Than I asked her to be in my music video.. than she came over for the first time (as a friend) to work on the video one and one... and it was intense to say the least. Than we went to baltimore together. Second "friend" outing. It took me baltimore to realize I can't really do this close friend thing with her at all...

ooo...this is worse than i thought

she likes chasing you.

definitely, do not tell her

she's most likely still interested in hooking up with you because of your guard

the minute you tell her is the minute she'll start to taking you for granted and will lose interest entirely

i honestly don't think you should pursue anything with her ever....even if she comes to you and tells you how she messed up..which will definitely happen the more you detach yourself

only when you move on can you truly have a friendship with her and then if you want you tell her about the feelings you used to have.

you've got to practice self-care and self-love

she's not a bad person..just confused...confused Pisces hurt people unintentionally

because they don't know themselves or what they are doing



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Thank you. That's good advice. Im glad I had that memory with her yesterday. It was a lot of fun. And a good note for us to leave on. You are very right. I will absolutely detach...I do want to post a picture.. Not of her but from the trip.. is that a bad idea if im trying to detach do you think? I want to post it, because thats what I do.. but Im extra cautious when it comes to her as you can see... I wont even post her on my stories...

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Posted by Adreamuponwaking
Posted by WaterDevil
Posted by Adreamuponwaking
Posted by WaterDevil
Posted by pinkbird03
You went as friends. You're not even dating. Ask her on a date before you say I love you.
We've dated before. Twice. There is a backstory.
There were two attempts at a relationship?

i didn't know this

when was the second go around?

2nd was most recent. She came back into my life 10 months after I met her. I originally met her exactly a year ago two days after my birthday. So july 24th of last year. We dated briefly. She met her ex. And said "she didn't feel it anymore"... Than she entered my life again in march after her birthday.. initially with the purpose of friendship. But we started hooking up again almost instantly (minus the sex this time because I was guarded the 2nd time around).. so I guess you an barely call it dating. I told her my intentions when shit started hitting the fan again and explained "if you want me.. great.If not. Than lets be friends and you cannot kiss me anymore...) Than I asked her to be in my music video.. than she came over for the first time (as a friend) to work on the video one and one... and it was intense to say the least. Than we went to baltimore together. Second "friend" outing. It took me baltimore to realize I can't really do this close friend thing with her at all...

ooo...this is worse than i thought

she likes chasing you.

definitely, do not tell her

she's most likely still interested in hooking up with you because of your guard

the minute you tell her is the minute she'll start to taking you for granted and will lose interest entirely

i honestly don't think you should pursue anything with her ever....even if she comes to you and tells you how she messed up..which will definitely happen the more you detach yourself

only when you move on can you truly have a friendship with her and then if you want you tell her about the feelings you used to have.

you've got to practice self-care and self-love

she's not a bad person..just confused...confused Pisces hurt people unintentionally

because they don't know themselves or what they are doing





Thank you. That's good advice. Im glad I had that memory with her yesterday. It was a lot of fun. And a good note for us to leave on. You are very right. I will absolutely detach...I do want to post a picture.. Not of her but from the trip.. is that a bad idea if im trying to detach do you think? I want to post it, because thats what I do.. but Im extra cautious when it comes to her as you can see... I wont even post her on my stories...

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I want to see a photo!!!

get it out all online

you can delete stuff later when you are truly ready to move on!

Posted by Adreamuponwaking
Posted by WaterDevil
Posted by Adreamuponwaking
Posted by WaterDevil
Posted by Adreamuponwaking
Posted by WaterDevil
Posted by pinkbird03
You went as friends. You're not even dating. Ask her on a date before you say I love you.
We've dated before. Twice. There is a backstory.
There were two attempts at a relationship?

i didn't know this

when was the second go around?

2nd was most recent. She came back into my life 10 months after I met her. I originally met her exactly a year ago two days after my birthday. So july 24th of last year. We dated briefly. She met her ex. And said "she didn't feel it anymore"... Than she entered my life again in march after her birthday.. initially with the purpose of friendship. But we started hooking up again almost instantly (minus the sex this time because I was guarded the 2nd time around).. so I guess you an barely call it dating. I told her my intentions when shit started hitting the fan again and explained "if you want me.. great.If not. Than lets be friends and you cannot kiss me anymore...) Than I asked her to be in my music video.. than she came over for the first time (as a friend) to work on the video one and one... and it was intense to say the least. Than we went to baltimore together. Second "friend" outing. It took me baltimore to realize I can't really do this close friend thing with her at all...

ooo...this is worse than i thought

she likes chasing you.

definitely, do not tell her

she's most likely still interested in hooking up with you because of your guard

the minute you tell her is the minute she'll start to taking you for granted and will lose interest entirely

i honestly don't think you should pursue anything with her ever....even if she comes to you and tells you how she messed up..which will definitely happen the more you detach yourself

only when you move on can you truly have a friendship with her and then if you want you tell her about the feelings you used to have.

you've got to practice self-care and self-love

she's not a bad person..just confused...confused Pisces hurt people unintentionally

because they don't know themselves or what they are doing





Thank you. That's good advice. Im glad I had that memory with her yesterday. It was a lot of fun. And a good note for us to leave on. You are very right. I will absolutely detach...I do want to post a picture.. Not of her but from the trip.. is that a bad idea if im trying to detach do you think? I want to post it, because thats what I do.. but Im extra cautious when it comes to her as you can see... I wont even post her on my stories...

I want to see a photo!!!

get it out all online

you can delete stuff later when you are truly ready to move on!

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It's not a photo of her.. Just of an anarchist magazine I got.

also

i get why you can't post a picture of here or send one to me .lol

BUT

i'm super curious as to what she looks like

so feel free to PM a description or celeb look alike
Posted by Adreamuponwaking
also

i get why you can't post a picture of here or send one to me .lol

BUT

i'm super curious as to what she looks like

so feel free to PM a description or celeb look alike
Jhene Aiko.

Best lookalike. Just of hispanic decent.

AND YOU DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT I LOOK LIKE!
Posted by WaterDevil
Posted by Adreamuponwaking
Posted by WaterDevil
Posted by Adreamuponwaking
Posted by WaterDevil
Posted by Adreamuponwaking
Posted by WaterDevil
Posted by pinkbird03
You went as friends. You're not even dating. Ask her on a date before you say I love you.
We've dated before. Twice. There is a backstory.
There were two attempts at a relationship?

i didn't know this

when was the second go around?

2nd was most recent. She came back into my life 10 months after I met her. I originally met her exactly a year ago two days after my birthday. So july 24th of last year. We dated briefly. She met her ex. And said "she didn't feel it anymore"... Than she entered my life again in march after her birthday.. initially with the purpose of friendship. But we started hooking up again almost instantly (minus the sex this time because I was guarded the 2nd time around).. so I guess you an barely call it dating. I told her my intentions when shit started hitting the fan again and explained "if you want me.. great.If not. Than lets be friends and you cannot kiss me anymore...) Than I asked her to be in my music video.. than she came over for the first time (as a friend) to work on the video one and one... and it was intense to say the least. Than we went to baltimore together. Second "friend" outing. It took me baltimore to realize I can't really do this close friend thing with her at all...

ooo...this is worse than i thought

she likes chasing you.

definitely, do not tell her

she's most likely still interested in hooking up with you because of your guard

the minute you tell her is the minute she'll start to taking you for granted and will lose interest entirely

i honestly don't think you should pursue anything with her ever....even if she comes to you and tells you how she messed up..which will definitely happen the more you detach yourself

only when you move on can you truly have a friendship with her and then if you want you tell her about the feelings you used to have.

you've got to practice self-care and self-love

she's not a bad person..just confused...confused Pisces hurt people unintentionally

because they don't know themselves or what they are doing





Thank you. That's good advice. Im glad I had that memory with her yesterday. It was a lot of fun. And a good note for us to leave on. You are very right. I will absolutely detach...I do want to post a picture.. Not of her but from the trip.. is that a bad idea if im trying to detach do you think? I want to post it, because thats what I do.. but Im extra cautious when it comes to her as you can see... I wont even post her on my stories...

I want to see a photo!!!

get it out all online

you can delete stuff later when you are truly ready to move on!



It's not a photo of her.. Just of an anarchist magazine I got.

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still down!

Posted by WaterDevil
Posted by Adreamuponwaking
also

i get why you can't post a picture of here or send one to me .lol

BUT

i'm super curious as to what she looks like

so feel free to PM a description or celeb look alike
Jhene Aiko.

Best lookalike. Just of hispanic decent.

AND YOU DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT I LOOK LIKE!
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interesting......


so you like latinas too?

still haven't landed one.

this last pisces was half costa rican and looked a bit like gillian jacobs

except taller

she was

5'9 ( legs for days)

wavy brown hair

green eyes

freckles

when she smiled my heart would stop.

Angry

my mantra is that there is a better girl out there

although i can't imagine it yet

better than what i could have ever hoped or dreamed

i feel like it's working

Posted by Piscox
"She's not a bad person..just confused...confused Pisces hurt people unintentionally

because they don't know themselves or what they are doing." - Yes.


We are also confused when we're getting mixed signals, are you hot and cold about expressing your feelings to her? You can't expect us to know how to feel, or how to act when you open up one day, and ignore us the next.
You're absolutely right. But when I opened up emotionally toward her last year, I got really hurt when she pushed me away. I never looked at her the same again. Or gave her that same romantic vulnerability. its a two way street. And I can't always be the only one admitting feelings all the time its pathetic. I open up about other things. But I cant be the only one admitting I like her/want her all the time. She knew the first few times I expressed that. I just can't allow my self to tell her specifically how deep my feelings got. For what?
Posted by Adreamuponwaking
Posted by WaterDevil
Posted by Adreamuponwaking
also

i get why you can't post a picture of here or send one to me .lol

BUT

i'm super curious as to what she looks like

so feel free to PM a description or celeb look alike
Jhene Aiko.

Best lookalike. Just of hispanic decent.

AND YOU DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT I LOOK LIKE!


interesting......


so you like latinas too?

still haven't landed one.

this last pisces was half costa rican and looked a bit like gillian jacobs

except taller

she was

5'9 ( legs for days)

wavy brown hair

green eyes

freckles

when she smiled my heart would stop.

Angry

my mantra is that there is a better girl out there

although i can't imagine it yet

better than what i could have ever hoped or dreamed

i feel like it's working

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Latinas yes. lol
In this instance, you're acting like a woman. Show her you're in love by your actions and the way you handle her (not in an aggressive sense, but that might turn on at times too; and when I mean aggressive, I don't mean possessive and crazy). You don't have yo pour your heart out, women like men who's feelings are unclear. If she constantly knows where she stands with you, that's not a good outcome. You vented to us and that should be enough. Whenever you feel as if you're gonna barf your feelings, just talk to us. It's better. I promise, man. Only do so of she asks or is feelings unsure about your feelings towards he r, but women like be unsure. It's no a bad thing to let her feel unsure.

I want you to succeed and I promise this is factual advice. I can see you're a good dude. Please don't turn her off.
Im a female haha.. gay. And thank you. That's solid advice, and I appreciate it smile
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Im a female haha.. gay. And thank you. That's solid advice, and I appreciate it smile
I'm a female too. You sound like the one that's leading the relationship.
So if y'all are going cold on each other, I would advise to back off and let her come to you. Like a cat.. Just let her come to you. See other chicks, do other things and when she calls just assume she wanna kick it and make kick it plans, and have sex.
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Posted by pinkbird03
Posted by WaterDevil
Posted by pinkbird03
You went as friends. You're not even dating. Ask her on a date before you say I love you.
We've dated before. Twice. There is a backstory.
So you dated twice, then became friends?
yes
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Sounds like she friend zoned you. Don't confess your love. It might scare her away

And don't tell her that you're backin off, just do it.
Posted by Piscox
"She's not a bad person..just confused...confused Pisces hurt people unintentionally

because they don't know themselves or what they are doing." - Yes.


We are also confused when we're getting mixed signals, are you hot and cold about expressing your feelings to her? You can't expect us to know how to feel, or how to act when you open up one day, and ignore us the next.
even when Pisces get mixed signals we still Know if someone is into us

her pisces knows..they've dated twice

the first time the pisces met someone she also liked

someone who she thought the connection was stronger with.....

and even that relationship didn't last long

so many red flags with this girl

i guess it's easier to see when you are not in it though

to be fair my close friends tried to warn me when i was in a similar position

my pisces lost interest when she met a scorpio dude. they dated for 5 months before she

texts me randomly out of the blue that they broke up

why would she do that? because she knew all along about my feels

and that she could get attention..especially with the hot and cold dance
Posted by WaterDevil
Posted by Piscox
"She's not a bad person..just confused...confused Pisces hurt people unintentionally

because they don't know themselves or what they are doing." - Yes.


We are also confused when we're getting mixed signals, are you hot and cold about expressing your feelings to her? You can't expect us to know how to feel, or how to act when you open up one day, and ignore us the next.
You're absolutely right. But when I opened up emotionally toward her last year, I got really hurt when she pushed me away. I never looked at her the same again. Or gave her that same romantic vulnerability. its a two way street. And I can't always be the only one admitting feelings all the time its pathetic. I open up about other things. But I cant be the only one admitting I like her/want her all the time. She knew the first few times I expressed that. I just can't allow my self to tell her specifically how deep my feelings got. For what?
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Awwwwww

*hug*


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